anytime anyday anyplace anyzone anywhere anywhat anywho anyhow anywhen anything anywutttevvva, anyway
blogging away with you
in real in unreal in like-real in real-like
in awake in sleep in dreams
in cyber in reality
in the Dominion of ALLAH, God Willing : )

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10x dear flying dutchman, u inspire
i thot i saw ur program abt blogging
somewhere
somehow
sometime
back? current? or back to the future?
i do not know
& i wish not to wonder far

: )

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hun, heeeeeeeelp! since last night my mouth bled!!!!!!!!!
i couldnt sleep well  : (
i slept less than 4 hours only
my stomach  h u r t s  so badly it feels like something was gonna be purged out!!!
help! this is emergency!!!
hunny i'm in  g r e a t   p a i n , real pain,  r e a l   t i m e  , realliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!
errrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and itz r-e-a-l-l-y b a a a d !
h e l p  hunny!!! h E L p me!!!
r   a   a   a   a   a   s   a   n   y   a    bagai nak mintak nyawa....arrrrrrrrrrrrrGGGGGhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hun! hUn!! HUNNY!!!
recite .  a . l . f . a . t . e . h . a .  fer me will u dear?
dont ferget taawuz! & basmALLAH! too
p l e e e e e e e e e e a s e e e e e e e !!!!!!!!!!
pleeeeaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hunny,   m e n t i o n   my name will u?
my real name, my nick name, n-a-m-e-s .....watever u could think of
please hun, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee !!!

hunny

hunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i.............................

I.......................

 n a k    m a k a n    *  *   *   *   *   *   *       *   *   *   *   *    *    *   *   * ,   n o w   k   ?
 

s       e       n       g       g       u       g       u       t       b       i       g       t       i       m      e
 

s       e       n       g       g       u       g       u       t       b       i       g       t       i       m      e

s       e       n       g       g       u       g       u       t       b       i       g       t       i       m      e

hun, i dont wanna use tampons, i want your 100% all-natural, organic tampons
and i dont wan de ones wif wings either...
i wan your 100% all-natural, organic wings
"... kanku kibarkan  s a y a p k u  melindungimu..."

mmm...mmm...mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..................................
come quick hunny, itzverydechewwwydweeepyyy

& hun, i liiike it  b a r e , all-natural,  skin-to-skin, r r r a a a w w w
can u? can u handle me?

hun, i was in africa earlier
i recognise it coz the map of africa was flashed before my very eyes while i was on air
i was not in any planes watsoever
i juz took flight on ma own
as i reached a remote area, i saw what looks like benowo of demak, handing a piece of white scroll to one of the people there
& they all make noise & they all jump for joy
they are the aborigines there
behind their joy, they have a sort o' revenge look
they look very determined to take revenge
and sekampung pon turut seia-sekata
mereka gembira campur marah
mereka sama-sama nak tuntut balas
hun, siaper yg act in pgl ni? u ke i?
but i tak mcm hang tuah pon...?
i was wearing white and this demak guy was also wearing white & riding a white horse
wallahualam

u tau tak betapa i cintakan diri u hun?
semasa i 'kejar' dat baruah, i selam sedalam-dalamnya tau
i masok ke perut bumi and make sure ia tidak kembali lagi
@ first ia dah tidak kelihatan tapi i tetap tenung&renung tepat ke arah di mana ia menghilang dan tunggu kerana i tak mainlah helah dia & all his stupid tricks
true enuff after a while, he appeared again
selang beberapa kali terjadi begitu,
datang seorang pemuda sambil tersenyum, dia mengajak i untuk ke surface semula tapi i tidak berganjak
i enggan! kerna khuatir andai si besi berabok tu datang lagi
i lakukan ini semua kerana u tau, hunny
i benar-benar sayangkan u hun
do u love me dear?
say my name will ya hun? my real name, please...
cinta kita kita bawa ke syurga k, love?
insyaALLAH, aameen, aameen, aameen ya Rabbal 'alamin!
newayz kan hun, pemuda yang 'songsong' i tu sampai macam nak tergolek dia ketawa
lutut dia sampai mcm dah longgar & dia tarik tangan i tapi i takmu pegi jugak until...
beautiful shapes of lovehearts appeared [scroll down re de freshroses-laced loveshape]
& ader kesinambungan p'laks....
i lihat muka-muka ngeri yg took over the baruah's face
from a fierce lion to a cheetah to a leopard to monstrous creatures etc...  yg i tak penah terbayangkan
berlapis-lapis gigi dan taringnya yang tajam
looks very de buas
kemudian, i ternampak keris yang menusuk tepat ke arah muka benda tu
akhirnya, sebujur tubuh sedia di halakan ke arah sebatang besi, err.... something cylindrical
i tak mahu sesiaper atau aper-aper pon ganggu kita
u nak i buktikan macam maner lagi tentang keikhlasan i menyintai u hun?

waktu gambaran bunga mawar yg appear di mata i,
ader juga images of wildflowers tapi they're not like the wildflowers i gave u,
they're more like wicked, evil , poisonous wildflowers
so i  lawan dengan tenungan i sehinggalah hadir kelopak bunga mawar yang berwarna-warna
warna-warna cinta kita, hun!  : )

hey hun, i was at myhubby's workplace juz now and gez what?
we bought pgl...! hehehe
i watched de 1st disc only coz i'm kinda tired
i love your acting, i do
kalau tak keberatan, sampaikan salam ikhlas i kepada everyone involved in pgl eh dear?
alex komang tersangatlah exotic....mmmmm....err....hmmmmm.....i love his tan and mean looks in pgl : P
i can't stop thinking of you
i can't stop looking forward that you exist in my life for real
mishhh u sangat-sangat tau *mwuacccks*!

l o v e   y a   m a ,   p a   &   a n a

J   E   N   A   Z   A   H       C   O   U   R   S   E

AbdM & SamsEngALKAFF
s i a p e r   n a k   j a d i   j e n a z a h   d u l u   ?  t o l o n g   j a n g a n  -  a n g k a t   t a n g a n   ! ! !

AJ - QURAN CLASS

AbdM - QURAN CLASS & JENAZAH COURSE
ohh... kau erase nama kau dari ingatan siti yerk? siti, sitiiiiiiii....siaper nama brother dia?
Ustadz AbdulMalek! hencum!!! hehehe....

SamsEngALKAFF- FIQH CLASS & JENAZAH COURSE

RW[muallaf] -

FY[muallaf] - INTRODUCTORY COURSE

HK - TAUHID SAMDOL

organised by darul @ darul premises

demanding sister who was doorgirl for 1st marriageGuidanceCourse which siti had attended -

sinister speaker for 1st marriageGuidanceCourse which siti attended -

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organised by darul @ darul premises

teacher-turned-housewife[coz she cares abt her family], part-time speaker for 1st marriageGuidanceCourse which siti attended - u r safe

organised by darul @ wisma indah

hamidahBahashwan, speaker for 2nd marriageGuidanceCourse which siti attended - u r safe

remi, speaker for 2nd marriageGuidanceCourse which siti attended - u r safe

f o r   r e f e r e n c e   ,   i f   a n y
 mysiti's favouriteFemalePal @ darul : sisterMariamPapok

salam hun,

hubby i came to me from de left side t'day
hubby i shayaaang i tau : )
dia selalu kater, "shayaaang bini abang..." hehehe
newayz, tis morning he said to me that i slept soundly last night, alhamduLILLah ehk?
coz dah bertahun my sleep hasnt been peaceful
last night, i was in a taxi with 5 ppl
i was seated at the back, & on my left was an ex-collegue of mine from decorMark
his name is Xavier
the woman in front of me was carryg a little gerl and the driver was tis AJ guy i knew frm darul
he dropped of Xavier at the loading/ unloading bay @ payaLebar SingaporePost
then the woman did the same after pausing fer a while
i kenal sangat isteri kedua dia tu
used to be a pelakon kat tv singapura ni, mahanie
tapi kami tak exchange any words watsoeva coz she kinda understand that itz btween her hubby and me
AJ nampak gelisah and had wished that i alight but i said to him,"send me to bedokNorth."
he turned around and said, "haaahhh? bedokNorth? nak antar u jugakkk ke?"
i said to him, "hantar i balik umah i lah!!!", and he sort o' terkejut gittu
but he said, "ni skang mcm maner nak bayar ni?"
[coz i had mentioned that Xavier took away my wallet as he left the cab], so i said ti him....
"nanti...... u tunggu ahh kat carpark, and i pegi naik atas amik duit..."
he mcm in a dilemma but as soon as i said that,
i opened up the red-and-white plastic bag i had in my hand and gez what i saw!?!
many many fresh strawberries dipped in milk and.....my red wallet'z in there too, wif the cash intact!
red-and-white, hun! colours of love! the flag of our babyM is red and white too!!!
: )sitisifu  : )babyM  : )sifusiti
walau bagaimana pon, taxi tu tetap takleh bergerak coz ader road-hoggers....

selepas mimpi ni, ader someone came into my room for real.
he took all the money i have in my wallet[even de coins too!]
& when i realised it, i got into a schuffle wif ma hubby coz i had the idea t'was him
tapi yg sebenarnya, t'was NOT myhubby coz myhubby had left fer work already
but i terus marah-marah 'myhubby' tu lah walau i tau sebenarnya, t'was Xavier
in fact, apahal myhubby nak amik duit i pulak?
yesternight when he came hme and during the times b4,
i had told him that he can deduct my nafkah freely if he thinks that he needs more money fer himself
yet he insists time and again,
"no yaaanggg, i shall NEVER do that. i shall NEVER touch ur nafkah"....
honestly, i takmu susahkan sesiaper
and to me the monthly nafkah he gives me has been more than enuff
he gives me 4-figure sum tau hingga berat rasanya untuk i terima
newayz after Xavier left, and i was fully awake, i found that the contents of my wallet is still here with me
untouched : )
tak rezki Xavier lah tu kan? hehehehehehehehe....
btw, in reality, tis Xavier keeps on emailing me. i tak layan pon he jams my mailbox. i hate it, hunny!

smalam, i nak beritahu u sesuatu tapi tak berkesempatan.
i saw ur body, still, and being immersed in water
u were not breathing! u ok ke hun? u perlukan CPR?
newayz, were u being baptised? or dipped into holywater of some sort?
dah tua-tua bangka baru nak baptised? krakar lah u ni hunny...kekeke
tapi i ingat aper tau...? gaknya malaikatJibrail bersihkan u ngan airzamzam : )
uwwwaaahhh! takde dosa lah kira-kira awak ni?
pusing sini sket.... mmm.... canteknya muka awakkk ehk! *bluek*

s a l a m   e v e r y o n e

those individuals who appeared in today's berita harian [Monday, 24th September2007], welcome to de safe zone : )
those who appeared in yesterday's berita minggu [Sunday, 23rd September2007], u are safe too.
whether you face the camera, or were backg de camera, clear or blurry, dead or alive. advertisements inclusive. but i say photo/ pics, & not necessarily by text.

pg 20, berita minggu, Sunday-23rdSeptember-2007-ppl [coloured photo/pic ONLY] the 8 of u shall be involved in SazaliSarwan's project. This is c-o-m-p-u-l-s-o-r-y.
mysitisifu has some msgs for you, dears...
assalamualaikum bros and sistas,
hanafiewarren, imranajmain, jaiwahab, hanimmohdsalleh, rozzalinaramli, umieaida, haylenaudy & hayleyadelyna... i love y'all : )
sedekahkan i alfateha, bley ? thx dears. [tak paksa ehk].

jai&rozzalina, hayleyaudy& hayleyadelyna, congrats!!

sishanim, kiter shuka writings awak u look shweet in de scarf *wink*

umie, hang tak feeling ngan che nyer sifu kan, in salam tajmahal? u'd betta NOT be!

brohanafie, i love ur guts. u'll go a long way dear bro, insyaALLAH. Aameen! Tapikan.... kita tak berkenan langsung lah penerbit eksekutif album Eufoni. Awak tau tak, sejurus selepas parents saya paid off our mazda astina cash to him, dia ajak kita kluar dating. Naik motor, kater dier. Aper dier ingat kita ni minah rider ker? Masa tu kan, dia ni, dah ader bini tau. Dan adik ipar dia adalah my ex-schoolmate @ temasekSecondarySchool, sitiB. His lines were murahan. Cheapskate!

imran, semoga terus sukses ya. awak tak hensem tapi u look attractive and manjer *smile* & i love ya height.

hope to meet up wif ya folks some time, insyaALLAH : )me : )u

pg 4, berita harian, Monday-24thSeptember-2007-ppl [photo/pic ONLY],
all 11 ppl facing de camera [2 main pictures]
from t'day onwards, u all shall get ur hair done at PASSION. Look for DavidGan.
ONLY staff @ PASSION are allowed to do up ur hair. y? bCOZ mysiti loves de way LimSweeSay wears his hair and she whispered to me, 'that son-of-a-GAN' has to help keep up his image and perhaps make him look even betta. And btw, MrNgEngHen, mysiti loooves your smile. She said ur smile is so-de-very brotherly and very sincere too. Keep it up dear. Let ur-kinda-smile be contagious : )
" hiya DavidG, aper khabar? saya suka senyuman awak. ikhlas yer! pls send my regards to FannWong. We were classmates in secondary sch. <<< ini prempuan banyak cantik kan? no wonder she won de covergirl for herworld back then...hehehe : ) & btw, biler kesebelas orang-orang ternama ini datang ke saloon awak, pls, handle them wif extreme care, k. please.... please do it fer me. thx dear : ) ".

SazaliSarwan, listen up. U r to LEAD the following project.
Here are the list, in no rank of order but eventually
get-it-done-right!

you may refer to sifusiti for the dateline
 as itz up to him when he shall move in wif sitisifu
says WHO?!! penthouse has to always be @ the top?
however, design&build shall commence AFTER Tuesday, 25th September 2007
sketches can begin right abt now. refer to de list of ppl involved, somewhere, below:
 

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HDB officer in-charge of transaction : MsVelvet@+6564903679
mysiti's i/c no : sb7142366
S11-mindedPropertyAgents involved : RazakHussain [then wif Propnex; now wif ERA] & Asma[HSR]

I do NOT liiike their ways wif mysiti
RazakHussain had, pandai-pandai, w/o permission, deducted $ from mysiti's share, so he could get away wif his commission. I want the EXACT amount he deducted to be given back to mysiti's hubby @ his workplace. RazakHussain & his partner Nita [also wif ERA now], SHALL NEVER BE IN TOUCH WITH THEIR KAKLONG EVER AGAIN!!! Sazali, u shall hand the $ to broMdK B4 mysiti arrive at MstfCentre tonight. Shez leaving her parents' ave2 home, afta isya'. understand? And i say c-a-s-h!
 

Asma is anutha S-11mindedMakcikWifNoStyle&no-human-heart-behind-the-scarf-she-wears!!!
one particular ward @ a particular hospital has been reserved for her.
myMenInWhite will be after her themselves.

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[ i'll be @ de jobsite . should i add nothing more, it means u r doing ur job well . peace : )]

meanwhile...

 p   r   o   j   e   c   t   h   o   t   p   e   n   t   h   o   u   s   e   s   u   i   t   e

client
sitisifusifusitimdK
[for further info, refer to the name-in-the-middle ONLY]

designbrief
!!! unconventional !!!
1 master room ONLY wif 1 king-sized water bed
1 bathroom ONLY whc double up as powder room, bathtub inclusive
NO storeroom needed
NO spare room/ guest room needed
mysiti loves piet mondrian & gerrit rietveld
she also loves phillipe stark
mysiti loves black&white vinyl on wall
she's a retro, modern, psychedellic yet a lady of grandeur romance
she loves nature too & has exotic taste
mysiti loves wardbrobe ala alumix
mysitisifu loves big, tempered-glass worktop. she loves space
i say all necessities included, eg: clothes, toiletries... [she'z an elizabeth-arden-red-door-lady]
mysiti shall NOT! do any housework
yet NO! maid shall stay-in

design&build team
setyadi ongkowidjaja [architect @ atelier east]
andrew ching [director, designer @ d5 studio]
sunar sugiyou [finearts&i.d expert]
further ideas&/brainstorming :  refer to the 8 individuals mentioned earlier

final inspection b4 project handover to sifusiti
marineParadeTownCouncil TOP person
 

hi Awak : )

pagi tadi, my hubby did not come to me
kanan pon tidak, kiri pon tidak
i missed salam-ing him
newayz last night, i detect ader yg tak kena
i kissed goodnight to my hubby and he dozed off...

but after abt a min, there was some weird sound coming out from him
i turned around to look at him and his eyes suddenly opened
by then, it was NOT my hubby, U Know
itz someone else
then i said, "go to sleep! go to sleep! close ur eyes!" & he did
but there were frequents of such happening
so i turned off the lights
U tau kan siaper? yg dah mati tu....yg kat dalam kubur tu lah, siaper lagi?
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............i benci! i benci! i benci!
in fact, quite a few nights bac, he touched my thigh suddenly like a monster kinda touch
i knew it was NOT myhubby
myhubby's touch is different
dat touch was a mean touch wif  b e a s t y   l u s t

... i left de room
when i feel itz safe, i entered de room again
i downed 2 lorazepam, and slept
U Tau tak? someone came.
mysifu came last night... tapi i terjaga only fer a while
itu pon, i tak percaya t'was him
he did not come from my left; neither did he come from my right
he sits right in front of me
he was all smiles and ever gentle, and he peeled off his cd sleeve off my chest very carefully
i sat there, looking down at what he did
ohh no! did he unbuttoned my top? argggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh!
abih dia dah nampak sumer? eeerrrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
but how come he managed to peel off the cd sleeve?
i tried but it sticks to me so much
newayz, de image of his pic was left on my chest... & afta abt a few seconds, it sets in juz nice
it becomes part of the biggest organ i have on me now, hehehe!
tiz morning, i had a hard time peeling off his cd sleeve that it tore to pieces!
there goes mysifu's pic! there goes the cd sleeve of his!
U Know what else?
early tiz evening, i dapat gambaran tentang....err....whatevers
and then i mcm nak aper tau....?
i mcm nak lari jauh-jauuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh dari bumi
boley tak i go bac to de future?
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i takutssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

ciao Baby! yove Ya, mwuackkksss : )
 

sayang, come in me sayang, i want you to come in me all the way..
sayang, i hanya nak u seorang sahaja : )

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sifu, i ingat besok pagi bila i wake up, i bakal ader tattoo of ur face on my chest..
u nyer cd sleeve dah jadi tissue paper buat kali kedua *wink*
i cuba nak remove it from dada i tapi  [listen to this>>>]  kertas ni tak boleh ditanggalkan
dia termelekat atau tak sengaja termelekat atau sengaja dilekatkan, *geleng kepala* i tak tau...
aiyoyo... mcm maner ni?

newayz, i tink i need time to clear tis 'poison' off me. @ first it hurts but now itz too numb to hurt.
i ingat belen-belen si baruah tu masih ader.
when itch & pain mix, we've gotta berhati-hati hun
us = me&u = us

"All About Us"
T.A.T.U
album: "Dangerous And Moving" (2005)


They say don't trust
You, me, we, us
So we'll walk if we must
Cause it's you, me
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's nothing that they can touch
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us

We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)
It's all about us

I f   t h e y   h u r t   y o u   t h e y   h u r t   m e   t o o
So we'll rise up won't stop
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's nothing that they can touch
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us

We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)
It's all about us

They don't know they can't see
Who we are, fear is the enemy
Hold on tight
Hold on to me
'Cause tonight

It's all about us (it's all about)
all about us

There's nothing that they can touch
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us

There's nothing that they can touch
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us
all about us

We'll run away if we must
'Cause ya know
ooo... ooo...
It's all about us (It's all about us)
It's all about love (It's all about us)
In you I can trust (It's all about us)
It's all about us

It's all about us

sifusiti, dalam konsert 'dalam baju ader aper...?' awak ader buat hand demonstration, remember?
brani/ berani/ *rasiti is of sipiritual colour, lacy no.
inside it, u'll find where ur cd sleeve belongs
yg baunya haruman kasturi pon awak punyer
you hold her key
and she's our bestOfBestKeptSecret, SecretsAfterSecrets
try her for me will u : )
if itz not good enuff, i'll fix her for u to your personal liking
shez sincerelywildlypassionate &  sincerelypassionatelywild - personified, shez also QueenV time after time till forever
de more u try her, de more u wan her
warranty for eternity
hunting season, mydearsifusiti
hunt! hunt! hunt sifu's siti!

banyak binatang yg   b u a t   m a i n   gambar mydearsitisifu
especially de one that inspires HijabKekasih
so untuk awak, kita dah tiadakannya
tapi jerat punyer pasal, kita biarkan yg tertentu di website ini
banyak di antara mereka-mereka yg tak kenal lagi kita-kita ni siaper sifusiti oiii...

ader owang, daun dia dah gugur pon tak sedar lagi
dia lari jauh-jauh ehk...
tapi takper, sitisifu ader agent kat sana
sitisifu dah nampak pon gambar dia kat column 'orbituaries'
ishhh... ishhh... ishhh... pssst sifusiti...! gambar dia ngah senyums lah!
pondan pendengki ni, dia merendah-rendahkan martabat sitisifu
tika sitisifu bersama ibunya
bershopping-shoppings, kat maner?
@ her mother's favourite departmental store
Robinson's Centrepoint of coz!
pondan pendengki ni
pijak-pijak kepala sitisifu tau
sitisifu moved closer to this pondan pendengki coz ibunya nak rasa his cooking sample
sitisifu taknak pon kerna tak minat kat dia ni pon, tapi ibu dia punyer pasal, dia tampil juga ke depan
aper pondan pendengki ni buat?
dia berikan kepada tangan-tangan lain but DELIBERATELY !, NOT sitisifu's
it was not mydearsitisifu, mydearsifusiti
it was me
later sitisifu looked around and saw many things she liked
i said, "pick! pick and choose! whateva you like!!!", she was shy but i took the shynez away from her
so she shopped freely
when mom and daughter went shopping till they drop, don't expect them to carry all the goods home
siti instructed Robinson's staff to deliver the goods to her home @ ave2
she was not too sure the amount in the bank account was possible to pay off the bill
but
i keyed-in the pin no and the bill was cleared
this
-  the day her mom, mydearsitisifu and me, went shopping together @ Robinson's Centrepoint  -
: )
mydearsifusiti, kesian hani kan? pls do me a favour, sampaikan pesan ini kepada siti's favourite princess,
princessTiara & her daughter
mydearsweetsitisifu, say it :
hun, pls remind sis Tiara and her daughter to recite alfateha for haniM, everyday, kalau tak keberatan, please...
letz all sahabatsifu recite alfateha too for him
c'mon ppl, bro hani deserve to be in peace, k
kalau ader yg tak tau baca, niat dlm hati pon jadi... all teez counts k
do NOT take things fer granted, please
pretti prisssh shifu, kekeke.... mwuacccks shifu : )
sis Tiara, if u have de time, pls ensure that pusara broHani is well kept, insyaALLAH, Aameen ya ALLAH! : )
: )brohani : )sistiara : )theirdaughter
ps : usah diratapinya walau linangan airmata yg tidak berlebihan itu harus, namun cuba senyum tanda redha... &
i am sure brohani will be in peace to see you smile,
& sisTiara, sweetsalam from me to you & ur daughter, kiz your daughter fer me, will ya sista? thx : )
sis, idops kan? dialogue bro hani in one of the drama swasta, it goes something like this:
"EncikX sakit? tapi EncikX sakit kat maner?"
me to brohani, "cacat otak, nak-sakit-kat-hati-pon-hati-takde, campur angin satu badan"
chorus[me&brohani]& dengan muka-muka : huhhh!
me & brohani wink @ each other
me   e x i t  to my hotsuite
brohani   e x i t   to his presidentialsuite
kebetulan, brohani baru kejap ni tadi ader in my room.... dia senyum geli-geliati....kahkahkahhehehe, ok shhh... dia dah pulang pon : )

yang terima lu nyer food sampling tu, eventually, was NOT siti nor  her mother  but t'was me!

apsal kau kasi  aku  the one with redwine in it?

m a   r a b b u k a ?

m a   i m a m u k a ?

m a   k i b l a t u k a ?

YA wan   jawab....!

 jawab!!!

samada siti and/or  her mom  ate them, itu bukan lu nyer urusan
dan sekali pon lu taruk berbotol-botol arak depan siti sambil memaksa dan/atau tidak memaksanya, sitiAkuPunyer enggan! tagak
kan ader apple/ grape sparkling juice...?
in fact each time sitiAkuPunyer cooks, she does NOT even add these sparkling juices
bCOZ they're meant for drinkg!
however,
beginning wif taawuz, basmALLAH, selawat & zikir, she puts her right foot first as she steps into her kitchen
she adds all sorts of ingredients
and sometimes too, she adds orangejuice,, cherryjuice, fresh lemon juice, evaporated milk, lowfatmilk, oatmilk  etc...................................
and on top of which, she knows far too well about herbs&condiments than u do
from daun salam, to daun limaupurut, to daun kari, to daun kesum, to bayleaves to basil to oregano to paprika  etc............................

mysiti cooks the best asam pedas [malay dish]
mysiti prepares the best satay [malay dish]
mysiti cooks the best hainanese chicken rice [chinese dish]
mysiti cooks the best vegetable/ meatball/ chicken/ seafood pasta [italian dish]
mysiti cooks the best fajitas [mexican dish]
mysiti cooks the best momo [nepalese cuisine]
mysiti cooks the best tomyum [thai dish]
mysiti bakes the best honey-glazed-chicken [asian/ western style]
mysiti bakes the best peperred-chicken [asian/ western style]
mysiti bakes the best cookies
mysiti bakes the best cakes, including layered cakes & domino cake
mysiti blends the best fruit juices
mysiti blends the best smoothies
mysiti blends the best multi-flavoured coffee
mysiti does the best food preparation &/ display
including ice-cream display wif whipped cream, hot caramel, nuts[she loves pecan nuts], maybe... chocolate/ coloured rice, cherry topping and sometimes too mysiti eats straight from the tub, mysiti is capable of finishing up one pint of ice-cream before you could even wink your-pair-of-eyes-that-has-been-given-sight-yet-you-do-not-feel-grateful-abt-it,
and mysiti finishes up one-swensens'-giant-earthquake, aaalll by herself
& btw, mysiti makes the best durian ice-cream, the best from her freezer
and the more mysiti eats aaallll the sinfully-fattening-deepfried-or-wateva-and-howeva-itz-being-prepared food, even if she downs the whole bottle of cooking oil, the more she shall lose weight...

... err.... and whichever applies,   her  o-w-n  sauce  too, instant sauce tak pakai haaahhh!

whoever wish to consume the above or more, cook yourself!

YA wan ..........................

m a   s a h a b a t u k a ?

j - a - w - a - b   ! ! !

sahabatsifusiti  vs        m   u   s   i   b   a   t   s   i   f   u   s   i   t   i

ooiii...!!! lu nak before or after 1syawal1428? or ariraye tahun depan? or biler-biler ajek lah supaya lu dapat hidupkan watak PermanentHeadDamage!

sahabatsifusiti, listen up dear[s], sesiaper yg sengaja nak pi bedal makanan&/minuman dier prepare, biarkan ajek dorang pi restorent dier tu, atau indulge in them kat maner-maner sekali pon

kalau dah rezki tu, mulut kater takmu pon... kaki akan bawak dorang ke sana, dan tangan akan suap, dan mulut akan hendak, dan gigi akan kunyah, dan air liur dan lidah pon aper lagi...? all full-swing in-action lah, dan akhirnya aper kengkawans....? dan akhirnya tekak akan telan, dan perut takmu terima tapi asid-asid dan segala yg di dalam akan mencerna makanan sehinggalah ia menjadi darah daging.............., dan bila darah daging dah banyak benda-benda tak halal lagi berdosa, senang ke tak senang badan? so tepuk dada, tanyer selera, haaahhh : )

kalau sesiaper yang dah termakan dan/atau terminum, atau bakal akan datang [iyerlah, manerlah tau si pondan pendengki ni selit-selitkan 'surprise' kat maner-maner kan?],  jangan takut ya sahabatsifusiti, che kan ader...?
but mesti berdoa, ikhtiar & usaha cari obats k? dont give up! i do NOT like those who give up!
Go on....go on.... detoxify yourselves!!! *smile*
***sitisifu & sifusiti bley buat aper sajer diorang suka***
 racun=penawar for this couple : )
penawar=syurga-dalam-syurga buat mereka berdua : )
sifusiti, sitisifu's parents is under my protection and supervision 24/7 *wink*

dan kalau bukan rezki, dah masok mulut pon bley kuar balik aper...?
untuk selamat, tiru macam sitiAkuPuner. sitiAkuPunyer baca taawauz, basmALLAH dan doa makan. siti AkuPuner pon baca selawat dan zikir tau masa ngah mamam  : )  i LiiiKE mysitisifu  : ) mysifusiti, awak LiiiKE ursitisifu? newayz, amacam bang smalam...? kekeke
ursitisifu lepak tau satu ari.... tapi jgn khuatir k, ursitisifu tetap QueenV, makin ketat makin rapat lagi ader : )
 

***applies to ALL aspects of life, death & life after death***

Din

DrOmar

Afiq spots DavidB******'s hairstyle (football star)

Mom has excessive attention for Afiq
Mom asked that i buy facial cleanser for Afiq
Afiq's pretty excited about the cleanser bCOZ i had bought it; I bought it @ bedok watsons (in-hse brand)

2 days ago, i cleaned Afiq's limbs bcoz it was smeared with black oil-paint except his hands
the nex day, he had similar stains on his hands and he had asked that i clean it for him again BUT i did NOT!

tukangObat had once said Din puts 'the magnetism' in Afiq!
I said, "appper? sampai mcm gitu sekali? abis, nanti kalau aper-aper, afiq yg kena? afiq jadi mangsa?'
de tukangObat looked at me, "ader oraaang... dia tak sayang anak tau dikkk".
But true how it seems, i notice Afiq has been using us!
& de last time Afiq stepped into our room, not too long ago, my hubby didn't like it at all.

as far as i can recall, the dream that started this whole nightmare was when i saw Azman came at the doorway of the master room
and he was with a pawang/ pawang-look-alike who wears black with red belt
Azman pointed at me and the pawang/ pawang-look-alike stared sharply at me
When i mentioned this to Azman because i have suspicion towards him already,
Azman said, " Ohh....Din! it's Din! because i detect Din likes you", confidently
i wasn't sure abt his words bcoz the person i saw was him
it really doesnt matter now bcoz i shall be berhati-hati towards both Azman &Din!
the tukangObat i started my healing process with said to me, "dikkk, kalau dia dah pakai baju hitam dan bertali-pinggang merah tu, bukan calang-calang orang tau dikkk".

the one concert i had attended on mybelovedsifu @ Harbour Pavilion, many many years ago, i have no idea if sifu even rembrs
where he asked the audience, "dalam baju ader aper?"
... seemed like no one answered tepat
but i whispered, "dalam baju ader ur cd sleeve lah", to which my cuzin, Juliana, currently a malay language teacher @ tampines pri, looked at me wif de look dat says 'yeah rrright! n he doesnt even know u'
U Know, it doesnt matter if sifu doesnt even know me realli bCOZ i love mysifu, i do, i realli do
but as we ushered out of the hall, i saw this 'Din' guy, he's an artist and dot, dot, dot...
actually i was looking dat direction if, if, if i could catch a final glimpse of m**sir fer de night
but the way 'Din' stared at me, was similar as the stare of the pawang/ pawang-look-alike!
as if to tell me 'no way! no way you will ever be close to him'...
But i thot he has died? what happened? Please, please, pleaseee Help remove tis tunggul's stale-leftovers that blocks de way
between my sifu and me,
pretti prissshhh..ya ALLAH... pretti prishhh Buddyyy... kakak realli yooove shifu : )
shifu... shifu...!!!
mangunnn! kakak mishing mishing u... mwuacksss shifu : )
deedee has doa alfateha for kakak bcoz kakak sms-ed deedee and told deedee that kakak is sick.......
shifu... kakak is loveshickkk wif u!!! kakak cried!!! i'm sad  : (  shifu... mangunnn!
oh God! ya ALLAH, oh LORD! I love mysifu, i realli do...
i've put away his cd sleeves frm beside my pillow last night, whc includes satudalamseribu
i've also removed funshine bear & my newly-bought pink hellokitty folder
i put him off from my mind and tried hard to sleep
but i cant
i cried and i did not sleep the whole night
and until this morning, my tears overflow for him..
i'm very jealous bCOZ i'm very much in love with him, truely..

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hi Dear : )
i baru mandi, it feels fresh *smile*
U tau kan...since yesterday, my right thumb sore. it's both painful and gatal dat it makes me feel numb unless i pressed hard on it
mcm bee sting
since it first sore, i dah syak ader sesuatu yg tak kena tapi i takmu fikir yg bukan-bukan
then pagi tadi, my right eye was red
it confirms my suspicion
until i confide in U, my thumb semakin menyengat rasanya
afterwards, my hands shake
in fact, my whole body shakes
but as i'm through wif ma shower & i applied kasturi fragrance at my pte part, my normal routine, i thot, hey...! why not put some on my thumb?
i did and..... the soreness gradually subsides, syukur alhamduLILLAH
and...err...U tau kan? kan i ader beli this pure kasturi fragrance oil for mysifu whn i went to de shop wif ma hubby....?
minyak tu skang dah ilang.....alamak! macamaner ni skang?
i dah terberitahu mysifu i bought something fer him and i told him i'll mail it out... ohh... ohhh...
i have two other bottles wif me tapi i specially chose dat one fer him coz the stopper was too big fer de bottle mouth...
i dont know why but i juz thot that this one suits him best, wallahualam,
and the other two bottles are meant for two other ppl... how ni?
kalau sifu i tak caya and he thot i tipu dia, camner? but realli... minyak kasturi tu dah ilangs... : (
newayz, i also felt that therez a gush of 'electric current seeping out of ma head as soon as i confided in U
will i be ok, Dear? will i be alright? InsyaALLAH : )
Bercakap tentang bee sting tadi, on de eve of my wedding, my bro-in-law was stung by bee right?
Din kena sengat ngan lebah...
tapi mati-mati dia xtion ok, tho i boleh baca dari wajah-dia-yang-tak-hensem-tu yg dia dlm kesakitan
de sore in my right thumb mcm bee sting, ironic kan?
and abt my wedding, i macam tak ingat many things
like when the kadi mentioned my name wrongly pon, i tak dengar...
i only knew coz there was hoo-haa abt it
qn is, kalau de bride tak ingat many things during&abt her wedding, wedding tu sah ke?
i mean, was it me who signed the paper?
its funny but itz true that i dont recall much abt my own wedding! itz like mimpi U Know
so...  nikah dlm mimpi ni sah ke?
watz my marital status now? single or married?
then abt all de sexual assaults...& being bullied and used through and through....  it means i've been used!
oh gosh!!! sifu will never like me he'll never want to come near me : (
i dah tak suci lagi...!
but hey...! that solves the whole minyak kasturi issue wif him.... hehehe... : )
Awakkk! jangan bilang mysifu ehk? hehehehhe
ok lah, i'll dab somemore musk to my right thumb coz
de 'poison' thing is not all out yet
i can feel it still
& di tengah dada i ni, rasa sesuatu kesejukan... wat signal is tis?
Meanwhile, as soon as i confided in U tadi, ader satu suara lelaki yang keluar dari arah myfavouritetree's gf
t'was a loud voice that says, "OHHH!!!" suara siaper tu?
dan tika i pandang myfavouritetree, it seems that the brown dried leaves on it that i saw this morning dah pun gugur...
myfavourite tree now looks green and healthy...thx Dear : )
ok lah Awak, i've done de dishes afta my shower juz now, and now i need to have some sleep...
i'm shaccck
Hadirkanlah mimpi indah dalam tidur i k? Thx Dear : )
But i'll finish up my oat milk first : )
& looks like my mom is not well too, she juz knocked on my room door and told me so,  so i sent her to her room and i told her to sleep...
i hugged and kissed her left cheek : )
salam Dear : )

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hi Dear : )

i juz woke up. i'm feeling much better, hanya tangan kanan i ni tersangatlah lemah
afta i shi-shi, & applied kasturi to my private part, [i love kasturi on my private part... hehehe....]
i applied kasturi generously to my right arm too, including my palms and fingers and fingertips and fingernails!!!
fingernails mana serap liquid ni sumer... but i gasak jek lah : )
dari siku ke atas [towards my shoulder] pon turut terasa bahang kesengalannyer
newayz, as soon as i got up, i went to the master room to check on ma mom
ma mom dah ilangs dari master room! but i found her on our settee in de living room
she was lying down at 'mywali's' position [mysifu's position]
she looked really lemah selemah-lemah tangan kanan i
when i came out of the common bathroom, ma mom has berpindah ke master room smula
and i choose green text coz ma mom is wearing green, me wearing green-brown-stripes,
and me sipping Season's chrysanthemum tea wif a green straw.... kekeke
but tadi, sebelum i terlena, i dengar suara wanita yg seakan menangis mintak maaf
suara yang penuh kesal
ehh.... ehh.... mcm suara cuzin i, juliana ehh?
but i buat tak tau jek and focus on thinking of mysifu
flashes of white lights run through my eyes & surroundings
[i thot] malaikat ke? cud it be? it cud be....
tapi i tak endahkan
i remembered mentioning, "hunny...? hunny...? r u here? hun, i mintak maaf...i dah tak suci lagi....hun maafkan i...."
then i saw mysifu crying and screams, "no!!! no!!! dont say that!!! dont say like that!!!"
he cried and cried
he cried in pain
he cried wif pain
painful tears rolled down his cheeks
and bila i dengar mysifu said such thing to me & jelas dipandangan i dat he's in pain, i said to him,
"hun...hunny...i love you....come to me...come to my life in reality..... come in me..... i want you to come in me"
and then all of a sudden, he beamed with smiles!
i mentioned his real name too
and the images of black love-shape i've been seeing, suddenly becomes love-shape laced with fresh red roses, trimmed around it
i was uplifted
afterwards, i saw many many roses
some white, some pink, some red....multi colours of love!
tapi that love-shape i saw tu, how come the rose lace stopped halfway?
@ the centre of the love-shape is still black [a small part only], and itz lobsided *?*

why is it lobsided? either one of us is more than juz plainly badly hurt... ohh... ohh, mysifu sakit ke? ohh no!!!
please Help us Dear, pretti prishhhhhhhh : )
neways, i slept with track9 frm satudalamseribu, playing on my5300 and...
i've placed mysifu's cd sleeves, funshinebear, pink hellokitty folder & mawi's cd sleeve.... back into place
hey! they're on bed wif me! we're all together again! syukur alhamduLILLAH : )
dan kalau mysifu's cd sleeves i pairkan dgn mawi's cd sleeve,
my late ustadz's cd i pairkan dgn walisongo's vcd
@ tis point, i'm listening to track7, sifu&siti's loveyduveyblues...hehehe
U Know, pagi tadi, my hubby came to me by my right side
tak pernah-pernah dia datang dari sebelah kanan i *pelik*
he kissed me over and over, again and again, [i thot] aper kena ni? mcm dah lama sangat tak jumpa....heeeeeeee
but i salam him and reminded that he recite alfateha fer me
U Know, selalunyer, he wud come from my left side
apsal he switched position p'laks?
i nak nengok, malam ni...siaper tido sebelah kanan, siaper tido sebelah kiri....mcm ader magik-magik kat dlm bilik i, kat dlm umah i
mmm.....dah lama i tak makan puteriSalad [my favourite traditional malay cake] and b4 i went to sleep tadi,
my mom bought it fer me...shez ever thoughtful....dia tau ejek aper i suka...hehehehehehe
de last time i makan puteriSalad, bagai bertahun-tahun yg lalu....tahun biler pon i tak ingat : )
Dear, i sayang mysifu... i love myhunny... it feelz shy that i jeles abt him... tapi cemburu tanda sayang kan?
Dear, sampaikan sulamansalam i pada mysifu, please.... please tell him i want him to come in me de soonest, thx Dear, mwuacks Dear : )
k, i nak switch track to 'bagaikan sakti'...salams : )Dear : )hun :  )me
why when i want mysifu to come in me in reality, my right thumb sore again? Bengkaknya naik semula? ahhh!!! i akan apply kasturi lagi : )

ok hun, thx fer playing hide-and-seek wif me. what is tis?!!! a concert without me knowing??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 menyiiiraaap  darah i tau!
 mesra sungguh  dengan all your fans & "that left ARNI ABDUL RAZAK breathless at the Esplanade in Singapore recently."
thx aLOTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
now you can go on!!! wif ur performances and concerts!!! and juz FORGET abt me!
tis is de first and last straw. and to tink tis is the first of my googling u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
go FAR!  FAR!  FAR!  away from meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
 

Pesta Raya
Malay Festival of Arts
25 Nov - 4 Dec 2005

A Musical Journey With M. Nasir
Rupa & Rasa - Mendampingi M. Nasir
27 Nov 05, Ahad, 8 malam,
Esplanade Concert Hall,
Singapore

"Join Superstar M. Nasir, master of Nusantara music as he performs an evening of great music with talented friends, Misha Omar and Ahlifikir"

Ticket price: $30, $50, $70

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I  HATE  THE WHOLE DAMN REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND WHOEVER  ARNI  IS, U LISTEN UP, JANGAN  SYOK SENDIRI  NAK  BREATHLESS  WITH HIM!!!
MY HEART IS BEATING FAST, WOMAN!!! KALAU U NAK BREATHLESS WITH HIM, LANGKAH MAYAT I DULU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HUN, U LISTEN HERE K, U LISTEN VERY CAREFULLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'VE COME TIS! FAR & TIS! IS WHAT YOU GIVE ME?????????????????????

NOW U CAN TANGKAP FEELING AND BERMESRA NGAN WHICHEVER SLUTS IN THE WORLD AND THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE! AND WHAT-NOTS I DO NOT GIVE A DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SUCH A CHILD TO BE LOSING ALL THESE TEARS BCOZ U HURT THE DEEPESTMOST IN ME. BUT I GEZ EVERYONE'S SOMEBODY'S FOOL, HUHHH? AND I AM YOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you pegi!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you pegi jauh-jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO NOT LOOK FOR ME!

G - O - O - D - B - Y - E -   - F - O - R -   - G - O - O - D

oh God! ya ALLAH, my LORD!!!!!
please HELP me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i am giving away AAALLL your cds and whateva
and whoever has my PGL, it's urs to keep!

assalammualaikum sayang

tis morning, i got up at abt 5min past 7. i wash up but i felt so very sleepy still, so i went to bed again.
when i opened my eyes, t'was abt half past 8.
i waited patiently fer my hubby to come to me coz i always look forward to salam his hands before he leave for work.
he never came. and when i looked at the alarm clock, t'was close to 9 or perhaps, just afta 9. By then, he wud have already left.
i took a listen to satudalamseribu on my nokia5300 and by the time i got off from bed, t'was abt 10 b4 10.
i thot of you.

hun, throughout de night, i had u in my mind and heart. i slept with your cd sleeve in my *ra. hehehe. skang, u nyer cd sleeve dah jadi mcm tissue p'laks. kekeke.... when i removed it skin against skin, it sticks to me, as if not willing to part.

malam semalam, i nampak my mom sitting at our settee in de living room. She was alone. But hun, she was sitting right at the spot where you sit in the diagram re 'kesudahan babak penganiayaan'. Kebetulan, she was wearing black. You tau tak, my mom.... she likes the fragrance 'malaikat subuh'. Ade kesamaan ehk antara  my mom n u? Newayz, i biarkan saje dia sendirian kerna i takmu ganggu dia. She was reading 'berita harian'.
oh btw, my hubby juz sms-ed. he said he dah doakan semua kebaikan for me and also alfateha. sweet kan, hun?
but hun, waktu i saw my mom on the settee yesternight, i rasa pelik coz setahu i, my parents and my sis' family had already left the house. [btw, my sis n her family normally breaks fast here @ ave2] *???*
ok, one mo sms from ma hubby, "ting tong, pls open ur door, delivery for you... *ASCII teddy bear* and *ASCII roses* ROSES FROM ME!!! LOVE U ALWAYS"... <<< [ aww...ain't my hubby sweet, hun?]
meanwhile in my room, i asyik teringat dan terfikir tentang u. sesekali, i akan kiz ur pics.
when my hubby came home, we had some meal together and chatted for a while. ehh...chope! chope! he didn't eat, but i did. And b4 that, I made dry tea fer him. He loves it. But he had asked for warm dry tea last night. Usually, he likes it hot.
Afta my hubby had dozed off, it's juz u i thot of & thats when i thot having u on my chest was best.

in my dream, i terlihat wajah u yg sungguh ceria dan riang. kejap kat my void-deck, kejap being interviewed by reporters....... kejap u tried to have some sleep in a hotel room but ur sleep was disturbed...... kejap ngah posing atas pelamin; kejap kat tempat lain. you move here and there. You are so de veri mobile indeed! Newayz, de last two images, you wore a kurta sort of outfit, wif a mufler [<<<is tis de correct spellg?] or shawl hanging down your neck. it looks white and light brown, perhaps beige. @ de same time, i juga ternampak dua orang lelaki diberkas polis. this acquaintance of mine [to tink dat he's not even a friend or pal, to start wif!!!] who had proposed to me & his 'P.I'. Dan most of this incidents took place at T2ChangiAirport. hmmm...

satu lagi mimpi yang i dapat adalah,  i bersama a group of people finding our way to a particular destination. I started off solo, not quite the wrong way, but rather the longer route. I decided not to venture alone and so i patah-balik, n i joined the group. My sis led the group but midway, she was lost. then i took over s the lead. i see arrowheads in bold red but she said "hahhh? i didn't see any directions". dia terpinga-pinga. But i sort of 'tak layan dia'. tapi 'tak layan' bukan bererti i don't care fer her. i juz left her to decide whether or not to tag along wif me. Tiada arahan & tiada paksaan dari diri ini. But for sure!, I saw faces i love threading my path. I saw my dad, followed with my mom. Kedua-dua wajah ini gembira dan ceria! Bagai ader sinar & cahaya. We 'rempuh' de outdoor-carpark. Biler ader obstacles, i pilih jalan lain. Otherwise, i saw ader vehicles being parked too closely it blocked the space, ader yg wrong parking, dan ader kereta yang ditinggalkan tanpa pintunya ditutup rapat.... Dan kejadian ini juga di ChangiAirport, tapikan hun, T2 maner ader outdoor-carpark? hmmm... cud the locatn b at T1 then? no...*geleng kepala*... it looks T2 to me!

and de final dream i had, my mom was on my left & my dad on my right. t'was in our home. My dad was in his room. My mom and me was standing at his doorway. My mom looked at me sweetly and said wif a gentle voice, "u sakit? u kater u sakit. Tapi nampak macam tak sakit ajer". i didn't even look at her instead i whispered," i don't know...err.... i tak tau". I looked innocently blur, and blurly innocent too. Then my mom smiled and said to me,  "tak, u tak sakit". Meanwhile, my mom had 2 bundles of cash in her hands. Red notes in her left and blue notes in her right. Then she handed me the whole stack of blue notes she had with her. I did not even touch it. I shook my head and i said with a calm voice, "no...no....no...". My dad looked our way and smiled, but was very quiet. Eventually, my mom insisted that i take the money.  i can't and i don't remember what happens afterwards hunny.

hun, i tak pasti samada i masih lagi bermimpi, atau dalam mimpi, atau dalam sedar sekarang ni. I perlu jawapannya. Tapi dari siapa boleh i dapatkan kepastian ini? My appt wif drYap is in abt 2wks' time. I can't possibly rush to cgh and see her without an appointment now, tho i realli feel like it. I can't ask drLoh coz tis is not his area of expertise. Dan i enggan! visit my GP. GP ni dah sakitkan hati i, berkali-kali. Walau peritnyer tidak i rasakan lagi, tajam lidah dan kater-katernyer kekal dalam ingatan & sanubari. Painless pain. Sekarang i dah buat keputusan untuk switch GP. I'll patronise the 'day&nightclinic' abt 2mins from ma home, or the '24hrclinic' @ tampines.  24/7 clinics r wiser than drO's, who is himself pathetic.
ACT I : Aderlah beberapa kali waktu i visited him, i mintak one particular medicine tapi mati-mati dia kater tidak. & he gave me anutha instead. Kater dia, pilihan dia lagi tepat dan sesuai. Tapi i dah pernah makan obat yang i mintak tu, jadi i taulah wat works best fer me kan? Buat buang duit jekk, huhhh!
ACT II : Sering dia ni, AHLI SINDIR. Macam-macam dia kater tentang diri i & DEPAN-DEPAN I TAU HUN!!! Dia tuduh i pegi sana-sini[travel] coz i was being sponsored, sedangkan segala biaya itu adalah duit i sendri. As far as abt 10years ago, my paycheck was way above SGD2K and on top of which, i did freelancing [tis, wif de permission of my boss, of coz].
ACT III : Dia ni pon, KAKI ANGKAT. Andai patient dia tu kaum cikgu, especially, cikgus-melayus, ape lagi...? dia  angkatslah  tinggi-tinggi. Nanti check-up nyer 1 min, aimless talk nyer 10min. Cikgu ni gini... cikgu tu gitu... blah, blah, blah... Kaum kerabats i kan cikgus-melayus belaka...? *me SMILES to ma hunny; ma hunny WINKS at me*
ACT IV : Dua kali yang terkebelakang waktu i visited him, dia taruk stethoscope dier kat my stomach. JENG!
ACT V : Kali terakhir i visited him, he said to me, " nex time, u shud self-medicate" JENG! JENG! JENG!

COMEDY OF THE MILLENIUM :
THEREZ ONE PLAQUE [METAL TABLET ] THAT HANGS ON THE WALL OF HIS CLINIC @ NEW UPPER CHANGI ROAD
"The practice of medicine is an art, not a trade;
a calling, not a business;
a calling in which your heart will be exercised equally with your head."

i macam nak aper tau, hun? i mcm nak tarik dia suwuh diri kat tepi plaque tu,
pastu snap gambar dia
and i shall hantar ke sekolahGambar
tapi my nokia5300 insist, "takmu! takmu! takmu!"
i tanyer dia, "kenaper takmu?"
5300 i jawab, "taksuka! taksuka! taksuka dier!"

*me WINK at ma hunny, ma hunny SMILES at me"
chorus[mahunny&me] : yaaang, yaaanggg... siaper nak diagnose siaper skang ni? u ke... i? atau kiter samer-samer serahkan kepada pakar sajer?
kekeke... both chuckle

sayang, jangan lupa ehk pi solat jumaat. u tau kan, i suka 'The Opening"? *me jeling manjer ONLY to mahunny*
and bang, i ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir batin : ) Hari Jumaat kan Hari Raya orang Islam?
*me imagines salam-ing my abang, sealed with ciuman di tangannya penuh ikhlas bersulamkan kasih-sayang abadi*

for the timebeing, i yahoo!search u, and satu YouTube i dah raid asalkan itz all abt u!
i really enjoy 'bagaikan sakti' u sang wif sitiNurhaliza. i minat kat siti tau. She's pretti & sopan. SitiNurhaliza berhemah tinggi kan, hun?
SitiNurhaliza seorang wanita melayuislam yang i benar-benar segani dan sanjungi...
[ hi sista siti, assalammualaikum. kiter suka awak tau. smile at me will ya dear sista? :) ]
i searched my pgl but i cant find it. I asked around if anyone had borrowed my orignal vcd/ dvd but takde seorang pon yang own up.
so, gez i'll make do wif u & siti lah, hun   : )   : )   : )
hun, u nak tau tak knaper i looove pgl?
bcoz of the cinematography lah!
and i yooove princess tiara. beautiful ehk, she?
terlanjur dah sebut ttg u & tiara, i mcm termimpi, i attended tis concert @ tis place called The Esplanade, in spore lah.
kalau tak silap i, i gave u a bouquet of wild flowers. betul ke ni?
i spent all i have in my wallet fer u tau hun. Frm a florist @ Raffles City.
i was there wif ma mom tapi, kiter pegi naik mrt.....but left TheEsplanade in our car. I drove home. hmmm.... *???*
the reason i went there was to see you, but when i was there, tiara caught my attention, not you .... [sorri, no offence....] i mean,
she's so beautiful i was mesmerised by what Handsome Hands had Created such magnificent beauty.
An Engineer of Art! SubhanALLAH!!!
siaper duk kat sebelah kanan u....err.... zubir abdullah kan?
afta i gave u de bouquet and got your autograph, i set myself free from de queue
peduli aper ader baricade and kepung-kepung ni sumer? i selak jek
then again, bila eh? biler masa diorang build TheEsplanade haaahhh?
i don't remember seeing men doing piling works pon?
Are theze the same aliens that erected The Pyramid and de-likes?
Then this 'TheEsplanade- thing' muz b one of the 7WondersOfTheSensitiveNewAgeWorld!
and speaking of aliens, u tau tak hun.... i penah being abducted by aliens, being experimented on... and, in fact...
i was once an alien b4.
itz like... i was many many light years away from earth and
i was playing a game of 'chess' with de whole lot of penduduk bumi tapi u all sumer terpinga-pinga dan tercengang ramai-ramai
i made my move tapi u all tak tau nak buat aper...hahahahahahkahkahkahkahMuahahahahaha..........!
later, i switched to a game of 'command&conquer' and still, u ppl didnt even budge!
tsk, tsk, tsk......
ishhh.....ishhh....ishhh......
ape lah korang ni!!! lembab sangat!
in reality, err.... as in now, i do NOT play either one of theze games and/ or both!
waktu i was little, my bro told me tis abt the aliens
" do you know dat the aliens choose to stay far away frm earth bcoz they are all laughing at the people here.
The people on earth are waaay too slow. They are all stoopid!!!"
Waktu i kecil dulu, mmg i tak mengerti, tapi sejakduamenjak dah penah jadi alien, i paham benar isi hati aliens tu sumer.
krakar! krakar! krakar!
i pon mcm pernah hadir, sekalipun i tak hadir masa tu, di fort canning
i went there to see u
it wasn't me hunny, but it was me
i gave u a bouquet of fresh red roses
and you did juz de right thang
you left the bouquet on de stage
u sang with who...? wif ferhad, am i right?
i went there wif ma cuzin who had passed me ur phoenixB vcd. we took de mrt but later i disappeared
from nowhere, perhaps from one of the trees, i came into being
taukah u, my love, i tak hadir malam itu?
walau i tak datang, tapi solat i datang, dan in-between de performances, i sempat bersolat di tengah owangramai di situ
solat i datang kerna i caaayyyaaang u

k lah hun...me take five and then i nak pi mandi : )
speaking of mandi, i nampak u berendam dalam air freshkelopakbungamawarmerah kat our private villa in spain : )
our personal pte pool, juz in front of our kediaman
komain lagiks....handsem ehk u, tak pakai baju....wait!!!... err.... i hanyer nampak waist up k....jgn fikir yg bukan-bukan....
u cool eh, hun? dan u tampak semakin muda. what i mean is, u tak tua-tua pongs?
dan in fact, i dah nampak lebih jauh dari itu...
i nampak muka-muka yg i suka dan sayangi
i nampak yanni, kitaro, and then i saw artfazil dan ashley isham wif me @ a cafe in kota London...
those who are not only sincere
but those sincere ones with passion
those who are passionate about being sincere
those who are sincerely passionate
and i say no male! wears long hair well but no1. mykitaro & no2. myyanni!
tiada kaum hawa di situ
kecuali diri i, hunny
teez amongst them...that i like
teez amongst what i saw
teez amongst what i see...
and i take wif me
only things and people, those and what i like : )
to keep them close to me
they, the ones close to my heart
and u
in my heart
u
in me
when 2-become-1
annihilation!
fana! fana! fana!
ALLAH!

wallahualam bissawab.

highly reccommended music accompaniment :   k   i   t   a   r   o    'thinking of you' L.I.V.E in spain

honey, i dapat gambaran tentang kesudahan babak penganiayaan ke atas keluarga i [& that includes me].
t'was one evening, someone came to explain things to my family.
[refer to de diagram below]

none make a sound except for 'mywali'. i thot it was my hubby but he was not home yet then. he'd normally reach home @ 11.30pm thereabts.
'mywali' and me seem so close and we even hold hands. once in a while, i turned to 'mywali' and either whispered to him or kissed him on de cheek. he does so too. 'mywali' wraps his arms around me!
itz u honey. 'mywali' is u! : )

i saw that my parents were the sweetest couple ever. ini impian i selama ini. awww... sweetnezInSweet, kan honey?

dumbellNo3 tried to speak up but he had no voice coming out from him. He looked like he was gonna cry anytime then. He looked at us with great disbelief wif his entire being. Juz b4 he left, he tried to come close, our direction, but his legs auto-swerve to his right and where to? OUT he goes! He must have lost his sense of direction, and for the sake of our love, make that f-o-r-e-v-e-r. As his sister escorted him out de exit, he had to be assisted [by her, of coz]. He couldn't move! He looked pale like blood in him were being sucked out.

And de rez look slightly brownish, or rather dull. Perhaps this has been too long a story that everyone's tired of de game, i don't know. *shrugggs*

theTukangObat was dead silent. But he had his chin over his fist [his arm standing]. He wondered how come i know. whatever that means.

meanwhile, i travelled in my sleep early this morning. I got up at abt 11am. I saw my relatives getting sick, one after the other. One jumped off the building. Astaghfirullahaladzhiiim! But the good ones are being spared.

i looked up the sky, watch a close-to-perfect picture-perfect-painting. I saw a streak of white smoke across the sky. In my childhood, i was told that thatz a sign of a rocket pass-by... hehehe.... dongeng kot? But as soon as i recalled the memory, and looked straight ahead, the trees and leaves changed its colour. They look brownish, like the autumn leaves. Ironically, whenever i do travel, i love to do it in autumn. Not too hot; not too cold.

I saw images of dumbbellNo1 being 'eaten' by earth. At first i saw an excavator look-alike thingy but it later appeared to be a gigantic drill. It drills him inwards the ground. It went deep, deeper, deeper than deeper.....and blah, blah, blah. There wasn't any 'opening' or 'liang' fer him. It must have felt like torture, if he has any feelings that is. His eyes were wide opened. It looked like he tried to say something to me but he could not even speak, not to mention make any sound or noise. He was not breathing. Clinicallydead or braindead or brainfreeze, i don't know. In between dead and alive. I had no idea. But he was still. He juz f-r-e-e-z-e!

I have a slight temperature. Itz too mild for a fever. Getaran di tengah dada i seolah seeps through the back, but still, it's contained within me.

Di minda dan hati i hanya ada u sayang. U seperti darah yang mengalir dalam diri i, seperti nadi dan nyawa i. And the sound of siren breaks the silence. I jenguk ke luar jendela and I saw fire brigade drive past realli fast. And perhaps, the ambulance and police car too. You know,  i used to scream at de top of my voice when i heard these noise, when i was little. I felt frightened and alarmed.... tinkg of those deys....hehehe....cute kan?
Gullible little me : ) Then later, I sneezed two times & a gush of wind blows. When the wind blows, the leaves swayed along. And when the leaves moved, they all recite zikir in Allah's Name. Beautiful, ain't it dear? Indah! Indah! Indah!

You know, i scribbled this notes with my favourite pen. It has got to be PILOT Hi-Tecpoint V5, extra fine. It writes and glides smoothly. I like it. I have multiple hues and colours like red, pink, green and black. My signature colour is medium blue. But this draft is in purple ink, coz it reminds me of you. Spiritual colour; spiritual you : ) My hubby uses the same brand too but he prefers V7, black number. In a nutshell, speaking of 'PILOT', my hubby said, he smells 'aeroplane air' in our room. It reminds him of being in de cockpit he said. When he was a child, he was brought to the cockpit where he got the chance to witness the pilot in action. Since I mention my hubby, honey, check tis out will ya? still under construction tho, coz he hardly have time fer leisure, and even fer himself. myhubby works 12hr per day, 6x per wk. he's a hardworking fella. a simple job he does but he does it with love, with passion. I love ppl with passion. I love passionate ppl : )

sayang, i rindu u, tau.  i saaayang u : ) ada segan dalam diri ini tapi rasanya sangat perlu untuk i luahkan bahwa menyayangi u, bagaikan satu kewajiban : )

tis mornng, b4 mahubby left fer work, he found a pair of black socks that belongs to me. U tau tak, tak lama dulu, when there was a minor construction or revamp work being done juz at the turf @ the foot of my window, I saw images of an identical pair of socks unearthed. Something tells me the pair of socks belongs to me. Ia adalah salah satu bahan yang digunakan untuk menganiayai diri i. wallahualam. Pagi tadi, it appeared in my hubby's section of de wardrobe!

banyak barangan peribadi i yang dicuri dan digunakan untuk menganiaya diri i. I kesal. Barangan ini barangan yang amat peribadi dan milik kesayangan i. kepunyaan sayang i. still, i relakan semua yang buruk itu berlalu pergi.

@ tis point, I'm sipping warm, moderately sweetened horlicks. I feel thirsty. I feel hungry too but i mcm takde nafsu nak makan. AlhamduLILLAH, i tidak berasa lapar yg teramat sangat. See, ALLAH Help me u know.... He's so Understanding. This being one of the many reasons y I sayang my ALLAH : ) He is such a Wonderful, MIRACULOUS Creator! Yeyyy! Clever!

Waktu malam bila i beradu, i ader stuff toys yang menemani i. Last night, i hugged hunnywunny [mywabbit stufftoy]. She's wearing a dress with pink flowers with cream background, and err.... pink 'hellokitty' panties. hehehe. Cute kan? It has a picture of hellokitty and little chirpy & adorable tweety bird. They are on a racing car. Formula 1 agaknyer. hehehe.... My mom bought hunnywunny fer me : )
My hubby hugged my teddybear stufftoy, chomel. Shez wearing purple dress with 3 pink flowers on her chest. And to match with her 'spiritual dress', i make her wear purple 'hellokitty' underwears. hehehehe... this hellokitty sits alone but she has a 'spiritual beetle' on her left ear, and the beetle sits in between two little pink flowers. Chomel's my mom's bday gift to me : )
And not forgetting, we have funshinebear from the collection of carebears. My funshinebear sleeps in between my hubby and me, along with your 2 cd sleeves and [there'z new addition now]... mawi's satudalamseribu. u tak jeles kan, hun? We bought funshinebear @ a florist @ changi airportT2.
k lah, hun, my horlicks is finished. i wanna make some huney dwink : )
i sayang u hun, mwuacccksss! & i've juz recited alFateha fer u, me & mahubby   : )hun   : )me   : )mahubby

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my hubby called asking me to call his home in nepal
i juz spoke to ma mom-in-law. de weather's hot! hot! hot! there
& she tells me that she loves me so i replied with a flying kishhh, hehehe...
miz ma mom, dad, anjana & our two dogs : )
my pa-in-law was a gurkha police and he worked in singapore the last time.
and you know what hun? my pa-in-law loves my agentDoubleM1710 [ hi sir! smile! cher pau ler mei yo? : ) ]
both ma biological parents & parents-in-law have great respect for the singapore government... dan,
ke mana tumpahnya lauk kalau bukan ke nasi, ay hun? both mr&mrsMdK respect and love the leaders too!
my hubby even bought 'success story' and we watched together.
newayz, therez a strong positive, supportive vibe between my mom-in-law and me,
the other day she called in precisely @ de right time when i needed a loving voice.
sweet ay, hun?
I asked that she say some good wishes prayers for her son and me. my in-laws are all hindus.
i received an sms from my sis-in-law, anjana. she texted 'u r angelic'....hehehe... cute! sweetnyer!!! but me no angel *smile*
hun, where r u? mishhh u, my sayang
i wanna meet u, i wanna see u, in reality. i do : )
rindu hun... i rindu u!
de background song is our loveyduveyblues tau sayang : )
sayang, walau i rindu u sangat-sangat, i tak memaksa untuk u hadir instantly kerna mungkin u ader urusan.
still, usah luputkan dari minda dan hati u bahwa i amat mencintai dan merindui u : )
insyaALLAH, dengan Izin ALLAH, bertemu juga kita suatu hari nanti. Aameen!
"...kernamu kasih kunobatkan cinta, kuisytiharkan kaulah yang kucinta..."

honey, i didn't get to perform my maghrib&isya' prayers yesterday. i tak sihat. i didnt feel good.
...& i also kena do dat specific bath again, and aaalll bcoz...

of de swine bitch! s w i n i s h   b i a a a t c h h h ! wat rare breed, duh!
i didnt see her coz tis he-she's body n soul has been ripped apart, so i was told, or perhaps, inspired.
but my senses r still working good, syukur alhamduLILLAH.
eeeeeee... geli nyerrrrrrr!

newayz, i whispered to ALLAH Not to let anyone harm you coz i really love&care fer u, my love. I do!

e y y o   a b g m a w i   : )
i made my dee scan tiz fer me!

is ur shirt stuorbewwi flavoured? yummy!

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soon afta textg the above entry, i was famished.
t'was abt 2.30am. i had 3 pieces of kurma ajwa' & 3 pieces of olives. nice!
my airzamzam has run out so i take after my wonder guru, ustzh kamariah. she loves tap water. slurrrp in abt 7 gulps!
wif taawuz, basmALLAH, selawat & zikir of coz : )

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itz abt a quarter afta 4 in de morning. honey, i cant sleep.
therez tis acute feeling in me. itz as if some sort o' energy and/or light is being beamed into me.
immense yet fine.
feelz like my chest is opened wide and this element being poured or shines in, into it.
and up ma head, therez tiz 'electric current' sort o' feelin'. soft but sharp.
certain parts of ma body too.
teez doesnt hurt at all but it disturbs ma sleep.
ive been through loads of upheavals i need to be comforted and consoled. i need to be pacified.
itz not exactly worry rather, i'm expressing my feelings to u whom i regard as a trustworthy confidante.
i sat @ de edge of my bed and looked out de window. everything looks calm.
de weather lookz o'rite too.
but thiz phenomena doesnt allow me to doze off. i need some rez.
i'd love to tink i'm ok.
then again, mayb, i need a jab *?*

i do NOT wish to stop loving you honey : )
do we think alike?

myDarlingSweetHoney
honey, honey, i found ur sangpencinta cd sleeve! t'was under my hubby's pillow!!! : )
and it opens up the exact pic of you i love..... the one with the reddish, & with somewhat dim-lights background
hot! hot! hot!
ur shirt is hot, ur cufflinks is hot, the safari-fabricated chair u had ur arms on is hot, de exotic background is hot,
what abt de man wearing de hot, hot, hot black shirt? *wink*
i think he sizzlesss!
u malaikat ke honey? u malaikat subuh ehk?
ohh ohh... weren't u the one who woke me up for subuh prayers dear? *smile*
apsal malaikat pakai baju kaler itams pulaks?

yesternight, i had this dream. t'was like a reunion dinner at what looks like a hotel ballroom.
there were two families. The malay one, where the two of us belongs to...
and a chinese one.
there were two people who were very talkative while de rez enjoyed de food.
and while they were doing aimless talk, the 'chinese faces' melts away, revealing their true selves.
this woman on my right was saying something abt, " ohh....its bad luck! itz bad luck that i have raw eggs touch my skin!!!...ohhh....ohhhh...ohhhh..... itz bad luck..." and she continued yakyty yak away.
tis woman is mad, and she looks & wears black too. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....evil!
and someone did mention something abt a young tree being seven years old...<<< i dont know what it means *?!!!*
then one male idiot said this to me,  "(blah, blah, blah....)....death note!...dEaThNoTe!!... DEATHNOTE!!!....(blah, blah, blah... )..."
i looked at him innocently and wondered why he had repeated the words again and again and again.
there wasn't any reciprocal from me
and neither was i a mirror that reflected his image,
nor was i anything reflective to fire his words back at him.
if he was trying to crack a joke, i gez the joke fell flat. no one laughed anyway.
and if that was a threat, i gez the threat is on him.
and on and on and on.... teez two matchmatched-in-hell couple continued making noise.
but honey, why was the woman sitting in between us?
aren't we s'pposed to be sitting side by side?
but newayz, i saw u enjoying ur meal in the most relaxed manner and u even wore a cool gentleman smile on your face.
thaaatz my honey *wink*
meanwhile, dumbbellsNo2&3 look so de very bodoh-bodoh....kekeke
and while de good ones amongst us dine away in a calm manner,
the evil ones gelojoh-ly self-indulge.

a dream that followed was that i was at the premises of alkaff mosque.
i parked my car and as i walked towards the mosque, i saw two girls waiting fer me.
i did not make any appointments with anyone.
this one girl smiled. she had some textbooks and notes in her arms and she looked the sweetest!
she had a flowy, white scarf over her head.
in reality, we do not know each other but i do admire her,
her sweet looks and talent in acting.
she's one of the models for firstlady
fiza something...err....fiza hanim or wateva
we did not speak to each other but as i move my gait, she swayed along with me.
i do not notice who the other girl was.
i muz say itz an honour to have her with me, i mean... i like her, really
but my suka towards her is not suka sama suka sama jenis haaahhh! hehehe...

honey, i hope this nightmare is over, insyaALLAH. say ameen won't u, dear?
may ALLAH Help us, love : )
i do NOT wish to antagonise anyone.
i have forgiven all.
tak baik kan kita bermusuh-musuhan.
and i sendiri pon bukan malaikat, bukan nabi [ i'm not male anyway, ahax!]
and jauh sekali i seorang wali
i hanya manusia biasa
i inginkan kesederhanaan dalam segala-gala, & ikut contoh Nabi kita...[PBUH]
but i don't mind if your love for me is more than juz moderate, realli....heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
however, it's up to ALLAH coz,
i can only recite supplications but i have NO rights at all to force Him.
ALLAH Know BEST. Everything is up to His WILL, kan honey?
As a slave, we have NO rights over The Master
slaves only have responsibilities
and our responsibility is to submit to ALLAH in totality.

ALLAHUAKHBAR! ALLAHUAKHBAR! ALLAHUAKHBAR!

but for now, i somewhat feel that itz best i try to avoid dumbbellsNo2&3
especially my bro-in-law but itz juz inevitable that we meet, afterall, we are part of the same family unit.
neways, my principle say always think good of people, NEVER think of bad motive of others towards me
but my principle also say,
but beware!
the last time when he knew about me showing my fist to the dog outside my window, he said,
"ehh...ehhh.... apsal buat mcm tu...?"
i mean, yg dia ni nak pi defensive over the anjing, buat aper? kawan dier kot?
to me, i saw that the dog was not merely a normal dog, but one with evilnez in his eyes.
in fact, dog tu pon heran kenaper i had shown him my fist.
and i dah cuba nak lupakan this other incident that happened btween my bro-in-law and me tapi mcm the reminiscence will juz drift into my mind again.
i was at one of the shops near masjidilHaram. i took a book on Sunnah by AlBukhari.
when he saw me abt to pay for it, he said, " haaah? u nak beli buku ni? iyer ke ni? ...b...b...biar betul..."
"y? whatz wrong? kenapa tak bley pulak?" i asked him
said he, "buat berabok jek nanti..."
honey, kong ajakkk kan dia ni?
asssudaaahlah!!! ni 2 ekor, i akan cuba hindarkan dari bertemu.
nanti tak tentu pasal, i kena sertu i nyer mata.

s for dumbbellNo1, who used to tail me around,
kidnapped me from my dad, in brood daylight @ payaLebar singaporePost' coffeeBeans,
and often called & sms-ed me like one crazy owang-tua-gila-talak, and lured me to attend his class @ his home so that
i can kill 2 birds with one stone [ gain knowledge & look at him to lepas rindu, <thatz what he said> ]
thank goodnez i had listened to my mom,
my mom said, " aku nengok, kelas ustaz hanapi ni mcm tak betul, bukan itu aje..... aku nengok, dengan dia-dia sekali tak betul...
aku tak suka kau blajar dengan dia....jangan blajar dengan dia lagi".
hehehe... [ i brought my mom along for his home-class b4].
he told me b4, " juz come... come to me, don't listen to ur mom. Ur mom tak tau aper pon..." with gatal-look on his face
and...
"kenaper ni mesti stick around to your mom and dad? u mesti independent. sampai biler nak berkepit ngan ur makbapak hahhh?"
dia jugalah 'ustaz' yang sms i even if it was 4am in de morning.
i wud love to think dat most ustazs who got up at such hours wud b doing ibadah[s] of some sort, right hun?
"what are u doing?"
"arent u lonely...?"
"i'm tinkg of u..."
"i...i...ngah fishing....and i'm tinking of u. I am worried fer u..."
"r u tinkg of me? do u miz me...?"
" u ...err...u tak jeles ke...? coz ader banyak pompan tau telipon i...?"
hun, i think he has lost his momentum.
dan i pon nampak which particular fish he fished. aderlah a certain sitiD{was/is from Mendaki]
diorangnyer gatal mmg merenyam betul even in class @ darul
bukan i jeles....tak mungkin pon i jeles, hanya i was concerned fer tis sista coz
she ever told me that bcoz of her high post, she had refused to put on de scarf.....
i dah puas nasihatkan dia to find anutha job or at least to put on de scarf afta work eg: for de class....
what to do...[oh ini semua bukan dlm tangan i]
dan lepas kelas, biler semua murid dah beredar, siaplah dia berdua-duaan kat dlm class
i rasa serba-salah samada nak tinggalkan diorang jek
... atau stay wif 'em
kalau i leave de class, it wud mean i berdosa kerana sengaja biarkan mereka yang bukan muhrim berdua-duaan
in fact, 'ustaz' ni penah suruh! that i leave them alone.....ishhh, ishhh, ishhh... *shrugggs*
newayz, i dont mind if he crossed my path again, realli, and if i hava choice, juz once will do
coz probably, i'd like to snap his photo with my nokia5300
[and that is if, if, if i feel like it, if itz not on low batt...]
then i'd print it out
and to put it in the frame or not, he'll be framed anyway
i'll wipe off the wall with a damp cloth
let it dry for a minute or two
i'd paste his pic on the wall
 :and then
aNd ThEn
AND THEN
i'll throw darts at him : )

mySweetDarlingHoney, are you coming to me...
... yet?
rightHereWaiting4OnlyYou...mmmwuacksss!

gentlestReminderToAll : fortunately &/or unfortunately for you, either i mention u here or
u will receive your mystery gift at the exact precise timing, in whatever way[s], mean[s] and/or  form[s]
and if it requires postal service, i ONLY use SINGAPOREPOST!
your share has been sent out 1.5sec b4 you were even born!

settle ur debts accordingly, especially to mysiti!
and i m referring NOT juz in monetary terms!!!

i say peaceabovepeace
so by right, all shoulddenzpeace
don't u get it ... yet?

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newayz, kiter nak comment sket tentang album satudalamseribu, bley tak?
ladies first...
peace ma dear sista
sista habsahhassan,
" ... mujur kau sedari ini semua
ujian buatmu dari yang Esa..."
and @ de textg of teez words, mawi sings de same verse, kewl, huh?
newayz, aper maksud awak wif de word 'mujur kau sedari' ni?
it is NOT de person yang sedari, u know....
it's ALLAH who Makes the person realise, k?
tak....i tak marah....juz my humble thot to share wif ya k my dear sista, i love you...muwaks!

next...!
bro usopkopratasa [whateva 'kopratasa' means... i still hv no idea *blur*]
"... selama raga ini bernafas
selama itulah kau milikku..."
juz what d'ya mean by that brader?
i am queenCardioPulmonaryResuscitation (CPR)
aper awak ingat kalau sifu saya dah tak bernafas lagi, saya tolak dia ke tepi ke?
ohh tidakkk! kalau tanah tak terima dia sekali pon,
i rela tau taruk mayat dia kat tepi i and kiter sleep sama-sama...tau
bukan cakap besar, tapi bab mati-idop-smula ni, i dah season lah... thrilling tau!
newayz, andai sifu&siti mati sama-sama, agak-agak kalau kita nak awak tido ngan mayat kiter sebelah awak, bley tak?
sifu i kat kanan awak, i kat kiri awak...
and @ de textg of tis words, mawi sings teez same song too, kewl, huh? looks like the track jumps on itz own...hehehe
lain kali, nak cipta lyric, refer to tuanpunyerbadan dulu, on der   r-e-a-l   feelings, k?
no offence....just kidding
yo brader! i say peace!...err...how dya look like enyway?

k lah, i have giddy spells
sahabatsifusiti, wud u care to sedekahkan alfateha fer me and mahubby?
we both seem to fall ill @ de same time especially lately
& one from ya too, honey?
n o   o b l i g a t i o n s   t h o
thx enewayz.
c ya when i c ya : )
honey, seni seviyorum [datz turkish fer 'i love u' ]   : )
come, come to ur sweet-aromatic-exotic-romantic-honey-smeared-honeyed-turkish-delight-light-upon-light... mmmmmmm...!

k honeywoney, i dah solat zuhur & solat sunat 2 rakaat. alhamduLILLAH.
me waitin' waitin' fer asr : )
i'm like.... err.... hungweeey
i hv m&m's peanuts, oat milk & dried fiqs.....jangan jeles ehk dear *wink*

honey, alhamduLILLAH i bertambah sihat : )
i hope this reach u in de highest state of imaan and health : )

therez one incident that took place
i was in a car, on de back seat
there were 3 other persons inside the vehicle
peliknya, all these 3 people look de same
initially i was stunned but their real faces soon appeared
the one behind de steering wheel was dumbbellNo1 who had coached me Tauhid @ darul
de co-driver[dumbbellNo2] was my bro-in-law
and de passenger on my left was dumbbellNo3 who had proposed to me
along de way, & after many many turnings and roundings, dumbbellNo2 got off
then it was my turn
however, before i alighted, dumbbellNo3 touched me here and there....u know he did his hankypanky stuff on me, again! : (
urrrggggghhhhhh...i hate it!!!
neways, i got off and paid a visit to one of my relative
for your info, dumbbellNo1 looked really cemas & gubra.... very very very panicky
but dumbbellNo3 cam selamba jek.... tak serik-serik deni sekor ehk?
how come eh they used the body of this one uncle @ de studio i used to worked at
this uncle tak bersalah seyyy
in fact, i think there were 2 occassions when the uncle gave me food to eat
this uncle sells vcds outside of d5
i'd love to think that this uncle is a nice person

take care dear, i love you, i really do : )

ps1 : two nights ago, ur srikandicintaku cd sleeve disappeared but i found it back later, under my pillow
ps2 : this afternoon, ur sangpencinta cd sleeve disappeared and till now...
itz nowhere to be found : (

< track6 satudalamseribu is playing >

oh btw, yesterday, i was disturbed again. dumbbellNo3 la, siaper lagi? i knew it was him.
dia tried and tried but tak bley. dia jadi hairan apsal dia takleh 'masok'.
i switched my lying-down positions and he still tak pergi pergi jugak.
he kept on trying.
honey, i benar-benar tak terima tau coz dia guna badan u.
u r NOT like that at all.
u seseorang yang beradab!
& mandi hadas is thrilling only if itz about us : )

assalammualaikum mysifusiti
come in! come in! come in!
wherever, whenever @ all

tinkg of myhoney

NOT u! of coz hanapi kasim!
however, take a listen to the following :
 honey, honey....... bley tak kalau knowledge nak tuntut nafkah batin from wisdom? *wink*
do NOT underestimate what wonders knowledge's lust can do tau....  [wisdom :  ta-u! ta-u! ta-u!] *wink*
  chorus[knowledge&wisdom] : i pon tau...
 u & i...
 kiter samer-samer share de same EXACT
*uckeliciouslyComaConcious-in-unconciousness-repeat-repeat-repeat-again-again-n-again-n-on-n-on-n-on...
 MIDDLENAME
 and it reads like tiz :

 personalisedPersonal
Sensitive-New-Age-Rapist
 personified

i thirst for u honey but begin with taawuz, BasmALLAH & AlFateha ok, please....pretti prishhhhh :)

meanwhile, airport police, here i come!

music background : satudalamseribu album
 

hi honey
waktu i pandang tiz patch of grass @ de foot of my room
ader sesuatu yg keluar dari bumi, or perhaps dari de patch of grass itself
berkali-kali i tak endahkan
i sengaja tak hiraukan
i ignore! ignore! ignore!
u know.... it could b khayalan
it cud be mainan mata
everyone shud be TOTALLY CAUTIOUS of things like this... silap aribulan, syokkk sendiri... kuangkuangkuang
and worse still, it could be mainan syaithan
i tak suka syaithan tau
in fact, i hate syaithan
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....! tak suka! tak suka! tak suka!
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...... gellliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii....... bluekkk!
pi main jauh-jauh!!! kita taknak awakkkkkkkkk la bodohhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ihsan ilmu imaan i, sama-sama gemakan ungkapan
"SYAITHAN IS OUR ENEMY NO.1!!!"
"SYAITHAN IS MY ENEMY NO.1!!!"
semakin i lawan apa yg terpandang di mata i,
semakin ianya keluar dan keluar dan keluar
seolah-olah menjeritkan, "kaksiti... tolonglah... pleaseeee... iktiraflah saya! acknowledge me pls! i am real. saya bukan mainan"
nak kate asap bukan asap
ianya seperti bahang, seperti hawa
di manakah datangnya kesemua asap, bahang dan hawa ni? tentu dari api
i kasihan bumi kita
bumi kita semakin dewasa dan mungkin sedang meniti usia senja
dalaman bumi ini tentu panas
mungkin juga berapi
suara dari dalam diri i berteriak sama-sama :
" ya Tuhan!!! kasihankanlah bumi hamba! kasihankanlah hamba! kasihankanlah kami sama-sama!
ya Tuhan!!! tolonglah reda kan kepanasan yg kami rasai
oh God!!! i plead... i beg you... pleaseee... Help neutralise de heat please
pretti prishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh : ) "
ia juga seperti vapour... water vapour, like de morning dew on leaves
andai ianya vapour, then it must have come from de liquid thing called water
hati i yang remuk-redam kerna kasihankan bumi i,  serta-merta ceria, honey!!!
i hapi! sungguh i teramat gembira!!!
i'm all smiles : )
do u know y tis sudden twist?
audzubillahiminasyaithanirojim, bismillahirahmanirrahim
mudah-mudahan ALLAH Kabulkan permintaan diri yg kerdil ini
andai ianya benar-benar vapour
insyaALLAH
kesejukan air ini bakal memberi kita semua kedinginan demi mematikan kepanasan
ini sinar harapan, honey!!!
untuk bumi kita sama-sama!!!
untuk kita semua, ummah manusia!!!
my fellow penduduk bumi, throw away the frowns!!! smile everyone!!! this is hope dear!!! this is hope fer us!!!
ohhh!!! insyaALLAH! syukur alhamduLILLAH! aameen!!! aameen!!! aameen!!!
ya Rabb!!! ya Tuhanku Yang Satu!!! Sungguh Awak Maha Mendengar!!!
Sungguh Awak Maha Mengerti!!! Sungguh Awak Maha Mengasihani!!!
Sungguh Awak Maha Baik!!! Sungguh Awak Maha SEGALA-GALA YANG SEMPURNA!!!
honey... i'm high...i'm high...i'm high....i'm drowning in ecstasy..... arggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
fana! fana! fana!

subhanALLAH !
walhamduLILLAH !
walailahailALLAH !
wALLAHuakhbar !
lahawlawalaquwwataillabillahilaliyiladzhiiim !

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honey! honey! honey!
i've got to tell u this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone came!!!
baru sebentar jek ni......a guy
i tot...aikkk? siaper ni?
and @ dat veri moment, mata bertentang mata
sama-sama cherryFreeze! fer about three seconds
sama-sama tercengang
and before he left, b4 he turned away from me... gez what?!!!
he smiled @ meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!
pemuda ini senyum kat i lah honey!
i tak tipu u
i lihat dengan mata kepala i sendiri
as in, de physical me.... bukan dalam tido tau
kat dalam bilik i honey!!!
i ngah duduk on my bed... and he juz appeared
then i looked up to Allah on my right,
me speechless, coz i tak sangka sama sekali that this man came to visit me
but ALLAH Said, "Believe it dear, this is real"
ALLAH TENANG DAN ALLAH'S ALL SMILE TOO
mata kiter sama-sama tidak berkelip
in fact, my sis, yg tak tau-menau that guy, pon turut senyum manjer when she saw me smiling at him
she looked at me, she turned to look at ALLAH, and smiled away
even my sis was NOT afraid of him!
ini sudah bagussss, kan honey? kan, kan, kannn?!
honeyyyyyyyyy, u tau tak siaper yg datang tadi tu?
malaikatMalek!
maka hancur leburlah segala dongengan... hehehe
tak benar ceriter yg i dengar selama ini bahwa
malaikat yang menjaga neraka itu bengis wajahnya
ader pulak yg mengatakan malaikatMalek tak pernah senyum pada sesiapa
tak benar semua itu!
karut!!!!!!
ish...ish...ishhh...tak betul! tak betul! tak betul!
kalau u tak percaya i, takpelah honey
nanti ehk...nak majuksss jap *majuks*
but my sis and ALLAH is MY WITNESS
i told ALLAH, "ya ALLAH!!! Indah sungguh segala ciptaanMu!!!"
subhanALLAH!!!
i cair! tau lihat wajah malaikatMalek
he mesmerised me
dia sebenarnya pemuda tampan
he's good looking honey!
he has charisma too! u tak jeles kan, honey? : )
u jangaaan ehk...nanti dia masokkan u kat dia nyer lokap....
siaper yg nak pi bail u out?
i jugaaakkk!
so, takde keje....jangan carik keje tak tentu pasal, k?
cayyyaaanggg dear...mmmmmuackkksss!
newayz, he's in brown robe
he was NOT wearing black!
and his skin was a very fine tan
he's NOT black...he's NOT ugly...he does NOT look fierce AT ALL
he's handsome!
ohhhh.....indah! indah! indah!
saat-saat yg sungguh menakjubkan
i akan simpan kejadian ini sebagai memori indah yg takkan mungkin ingin i lupakan
alhamduLILLAH!
dan sebenarnya, sebelum ini pon, i ader terima other visitors too
GreatMen yg i segani dan kagumi sangat-sangat
Sultan Awliyah pernah menziarahi i beberapa kali, syukran ya ALLAH : )
Rasulullah selalu ziarah i, alhamduLILLAH : )
in fact, Baginda pernah bersama i di dalam sebuah gua
[He was in green robe datz exactly de green i prefer]
u nak tau kenapa we were together?
Baginda mahu i berada di sisinya
He wants to protect me
dan tak putus-putus Baginda pesan untuk i banyak-banyak bersabar
duduk di sebelah i, bangun... jalan beberapa tapak dan kembali semula
kami berbincang sama-sama
Baginda is so brotherly to me
ader masa-masanya, Baginda akan intip or rather have a peep, looking out dari pintu gua itu
matter of factly, Baginda even stretched his hand out in front of me, tanda Baginda halang i keluar dari gua itu
kerana, ader sebab mengapa kami berada di dalamnya
ader dua orang pemuda yg menunggu kami di luar
i kenal kedua-dua pemuda itu
mereka bersembunyi di belakang batu yang besar, di balik semak-semak
kedua-dua pemuda ini tak tahu yg Rasulullah&me nampak mereka dari dalam gua
& these two guys are...my bro-in-law & tiz other guy who had askd for my hand in marriage
but i turned him down for some reasons
i tot, "ehh...ehhh...? i ader Rasulullah wif me pon diorang enggan berundur?"
padahal kiter sesama beragama Islam
& ni! ni! yang kat sebelah i ni, Junjungan Besar Nabi Muhammad s.a.w!
dengan Nabi Terakhir Utusan ALLAH pon mereka takde segan-silu? tak takut? tak tunduk?
muslim aper macam ni?
i tak sangka....dan i sedih....amat sedih sekali...hmmm....
by right, we should all be on de same side...
tak perlu main hide-and-seek... rather, we should..
u know... hava cuppa @ some coffee joints ke....
duduk criter-criter ke....
solat jemaah sama-sama ke...
go hiking or travel sama-sama ke... u know what i mean dear?
don't u think so too, honey?
tapi orang yg bernama muslim itu sendiri nak dengki dan aniaya saudara sendiri...hmmm...
kecewa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sungguh kecewa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i kecewa! kecewa! kecewa!
ya ALLAH, Hadirkanlah sifat ihsan di dalam diri kami ummat Muhammad & ummat manusia
Hadirkanlah kasih-sayang di antara kami semua
Ampunkan kami ya ALLAH!
Maafkanlah kelakuan kami yang jauh dari indah ini....samada yang sengaja dan/atau yang tidak sengaja
Sembuhkanlah kami semua... dari penyakit-penyakit minda dan hati
Rawatilah segala sesuatu CiptaanMu yang tidak sihat
Kasihanilah kami, ya RABB!!!
saya sayang semua ciptaanMu ya RABB
mengapakah mereka tidak berperasaan begitu terhadap saya?
Ampunkan hamba ya Rabb! Apakah hamba masih punya banyak dosa?
andai begitu, sudikah kiranya Engkau Maafkan dosa dan segala kesilapan hamba, pleaseee
hamba mengaku memang lebih banyak perkara yg hamba tidak tahu daripada tahu
ya ALLAH Perkenankanlah mohon hamba
Engkau lebih Tahu
terserah MahuMu
terserah KehendakMu
terserah RedhaMu

oh btw kan honey, de last time Rasulullah visited me, Baginda senyum sambil geleng kepala
Baginda tersipu malu sehingga Baginda senyum dalam tunduk
ciannnnnnnnnnnnn dier, geli-geliati bigBrother i, that he tickles my funnybone too
awwwwwwwww....sweet kan?
daripada i buang karen ngan aaalllllll teez tak-guna-nyer-geng-baldi-kedi-besi-tak-berani-comma-tak-sedar-diri
baik i bersahabat ngan aaalllllll teez SensitiveNewAgePeople a.k.a. kelab-besi-berani-sedar-diri, kan...?
macam siaper, u tanyer i...?
macam u lah!!! *bluek* 

& honey, i ader special alarmClock tau
fer instance, ader yg datang untuk kejutkan i waktu pagi
katanya," siti! bangun! bangun! solat subuh time!"
male or female, i tak pasti....
but ni lah my personalisedPersonalAlarmClock, personified : )
& this person even draws de curtain fer me to let de sun shines its ray into my room

occassionally, ader bright lights kat hujung kaki i
light upon light, honey!
terkadang juga, biler i pejamkan mata,
timbul warna-warna indah
kaleidoscopic beauty
juga hadir asma ALLAH
de hijaiyahs 'aliff', 'lam', 'lam', 'ha'[right to left, of coz]
hijaiyah ini keemas-emasan!
indah yang teramat indah yang teramat sangat
mirip de cloth dat wraps up de kaabah
seperti benang emas yang timbul, berlatarbelakangkan baldu hitam
they're embossed....yet they're not even golden threads
they're cahaya emas... yeah, golden lights!!! and dey all dance in front of my very eyes
subhanALLAH!!!

i was doing de housework
all of a sudden i started off.............then all of a sudden i was done
hubby i came to me and said, " yanggg! i've been looking at you frm juz now....doing what you did....
did u notice what i noticed?"
"whattt? what d'ya mean...?
" de speeeeed!!! de speed was what i mean.... datz waaay tooo fast! it was like.... zooop! zooop! zooop!...."
we looked at each other
*silence*
we looked at each other, again
"was that you dear? wHo WaS DAAAT?!!" he askd me
honey, aper dah jadi ni? mmg i notice i did de things & t'was as if @ de speed of light!
honeeeeeeeeeey....am i o'riteee? i ni bukannyer ader aper-aper power or whateva,  u know what i mean...?

sulamansalamsifuhoney
pagi tadi, tika saya melihat ke luar jendela
gez what i saw?
yellow birds!
there were 3 of them this time
two of them flock together
and they flew from tree to tree
branches to branches
having real fun in 'their playground'
tempat mereka bermain
adalah di kawasan my favourite tree & his gf & three other bigger trees
seronok saya melihat burung-burung itu
afterwards, the other bird that flew away from the couple bird come to join them
sweet kan? i was all smile : )
one mo thing
benar saya tak tipu awak but...
saya terlihat seekor pigeon at de foot of my residence block
perasaan saya sebenarnya pelik kerna tak pernah ada pigeon di kawasan ini
tis auto-remind me of pigeons yg ader di persekitaran kawasan masjidilHaram!
kemudian, saya teringatkan awak... hehehe.... kerna jinaknya pigeon ini, mirip diri awak
pigeon tadi tu, seekor sahaja dan ngah jalan-jalan specifically at de foot of my room!
come to me mysweethoney
come into my life, realli

newayz just to let u know
today seem to be my last day @ d5
shawn smsed me & he told me he terminate me
from what i know, sharon told me that shez the femaleboss & andrew is de maleboss
but juz now shawn told me dat he is someone with authority and he'z de right to terminate my service
he also told me to collect my stuff by 9.30pm tonight
i'm not going... i mean...
if he plan to throw away my things... i'd choose to let it be
you know what?
he even told me to come alone... watz dat sppose to mean, right? nak carik gaduh ke? arhhh!
oh well, watever lah
i believe dat ALLAH is de One In-Charge and
Rezki kita sumer dalam Tangan ALLAH
gez, i'll b @ home den : )
segala ciptaan ALLAH dan terjadinya sesuatu itu berlaku dengan KEHENDAKNYA
dan bukan untuk sia-sia
semua punyer erti dan punyer hikmah tersendiri... SUBHANALLAH!
ALLAHUAKHBAR! ALLAHUAKHBAR! ALLAHUAKHBAR!

saya asyik terhidu bauan kasturi[musk], even in my room. ALHAMDULILLAH!

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for ur info dear honey,
u ingat tak tentang what i told u abt telapak tangan i?
kulit yg merekah di tengah-tengah telapak tangan i ni kan, ader cecair yg kluar... hmmm... aper eh? wat liquid ni?
@ de same time, i dont drink much but i keep on going to de loo
& i perspire like i'm in de sauna!
aper pon i hope all teez liquid means de toxins in me are being flushed out
at de same time, it cud also mean dat my mataAir is coming out... to me....into my real life, realli
u lah, siaper lagi
won't u say aameen dear? sweethoney...my sweetheart... mmm...  i mish u tau : )
and i was shown tis video-like thingy
where i cud see clearly
dalaman i sedang under construction
i saw the veins, arteries... de blood vessels n whatnots
de liquid in them are very colourful u know
cam rainbow pulak... hehehe
i was tinkg...if de liquidRedThang dat flows in me were cherryjuice... it'd b ur beverage kot?  : )
but mawi sings, "cintamu adalah darah mengalir, seperti zikir rindu, kau kekasihku"
honey, this liquidRedThang in me is cinta u pada i ke? aameen ya Rabb!
wallahualam : )
sebentar tadi pon i ngah jiwang jap
i bayangkan kita slow dance or was it a vision? it's like real, realli ...ntahlah i tak tau
u grasp my hands in urs and i have my head on ur chest
i chuckled and told u, "no...no... i can't.... i cant dance... i don't know how to dance..." n i shook my head
i was shy
but u said, "no...no... itz ok, juz go wif de flow... i'll guide u... juz move along wif me..." u did not wanna let go of my hands
aww....*shy*
nak tau lagu aper...?
track7 from satudalamseribu... aper titlenyer pon i tak tau... but tis song is kinda, correct me if i am wrong...err...loveyduveyblues...
betul-betul u make me hanyut di lautan rindu...ohh honey, i love you!
hahhh kan... kan mawi dah cakap....insyaALLAH.
hey! tis shud b the title of de song!
insyaALLAH. very beautiful!
yeah & tiz is exactly de background music while textg tis slowdance thing
& de place... exactly de spot where she and mrMdK[herhubby] had their first slowdance : )

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mysiti went to de ofiz but left early
y?
bcoz there's no dwgs to do
mysiti writes her time-in and time-out
but later strikeoff de nos
y?
for de sake of honesty, cheat $$$ shez not into

mysiti travels around NOTALONE!
but malaikatmaut tags along with her too

i do NOT like wicked hearts and minds
acts of conspiracy
and/or air of authority
aimed at mysiti!!!
y?
coz it hurts deAngelOfTheHeavens & me too

shawn will die!
de veri moment de veri next sms or call comes in to tis mobile mysiti&me share
and flashes his damn name
come... enter tiz place called 'hell on earth'

there were 5wickedAnts present @ d5 today
de talkative ones (Riana's one sms, inclusive)
theez *uckingWickedFantasticFour shall follow suit
one after de other
to deOtherOneGuy present, tho quiet ,
moi dont like de way u stare @ mysitisifu
tiz is my StErN reminder for you

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mysweethoney, myAdamANT
dear, i am not feeling so good
i have u in mind but it juz felt like there r wicked things against me
some evil conspiracy going on
i was at de studio earlier but i came hme early coz there wasnt any dwgs to do
i sniffed something tho
sweet something
i remembered Rasulullah
it reminds me of de musk he recommends us
i'm tinking of u mysweetdarlinghoney, whether well or unwell
hugs & kisses, urANTHURIUM

honey, where are you? i need you honey
i'm dying
my chest feels tis tremendous discomfort
honey, boleh kah i bernafas dengan nafas u?
boleh kah u reda kan rasa di dada ini?
where r u honey?
can u sedekahkan alfateha for me?
my hubby juz did but its not enuff
i need and want an alfateha from u, my sweetlove
i force-vomitted and black substance came out
my back feels a burning sensation
i rasa pedas di belakang badan i,
di tempat-tempat tertentu
my head spins
and i feel something surfaces up from my cheek
and everywhere
i ok ke? honey... honey.... honey.... come to me
come into my life
sahabat sifu... awak dengar tak tulisan ini?
bolehkah awak sampaikan sulamansalam saya kepada sifu saya?
saya hampir hembuskan nafas terakhir saya
sudikah sekiranya awak sedekahkan alfateha untuk saya juga?
please, please, please................................
pretti please katakan pada sifu saya
saya amat rindu kepadanya
saya amat memerlukannya
hambaAbdi!!! dreamy-eyed IDiot! mana wap siti yang kau dah ambik?
berikan siti's vapour to herHoney
but you shall NOT touch him... dont even dare jentik myHoney!
ya ALLAH ! tolonglah saya
si P.I. gila ni mengekori saya kemana sajer saya pergi dan pada suatu hari
sedang saya di dalam mrt untuk ke pejabat saya
saya tinggalkan bekas wap saya di satu pemegang
dan dia mencurinya
please ya ALLAH ! please Help me!
please force him to give it back to my sifu... pretti pleaseeeeeeeeeeee
bila dah selesai, meh sini... datang kemari ke negeri yang bernama S I N G A P U R A
every granules of sand here, geleng kepala sama-sama
tanda tak terima kau pijak atas dia
u can swing from rope to rope
i don't care how u get here
but GET HERE for sure!!!!!!!

bOmOh TaMpInEs dengar tak? Ramdan! aper lagi kau tunggu?
nak tunggu isyaratBAPAKKAU? atau isyarat BAPAKKAUPUNYERBAPAKPUNYERANAKSELAKI?!!
ke nak nengok anakBulan dulu? atau anakDara?
siti ader depan mata kau
kenapa tak pulangkan apa yang kepunyaan diri dia?!!!
kau kater pada sitiAkuPunyer
"adik.... di tulang dada orang pompan kan.... kat situlah letaknya perasaan orang perempuan,
tapi adik punyer.... orang dah ambik"
eii bomoh haprak!!! bilang aku....!.perasaan siti ader dalam tangan bomoh maner sekarang ni?
cakap! cakap! bomoh pondan!!!
beberapa malam yang lalu, aku hadirkan siti depan mata kau
kEnApA tak hantar balik haaah?!!!
KeNaPa tak kasi siti semula HAK dia...? HAK SIFU DIA!!!
kenapa alih-alih jadi lemah bila nampak siti?
rindu?
atau tak rela berpisah dengan perasaan sitiYgDewasaYgDara?
apsal terkejut bila yg aku hadirkan depan mata kau aderlah siti yang anak-anak lagi?
kater tukangObat? apsal tak tau cara-caranya? kau obatkan anak dara ejer ke?

eyyy BoMoH kEdI!!!

"ADIKKK, DIORANG NI KAN YG ANU-ANU ADIKKK... DIORANG NI SUMER CELAKA LAH ADIKKK"
"ehh ehh... apsal abgDan cakap mcm tu? tak baik tau cakap orang celaka. adik tau adik sakit... tolong sembuhkan penyakit adik, k? itu ajer"
"ABGDAN TAK SUKALAH KALAU LELAKI KACAU-KACAU POMPAN"
 dengan semangat berkobar-kobar eh kau bela puteriSitiYgKauPerasanKauPunyer...
 maka tercetuslah adegan balas-membalas
 dan biler si perasan ni dah tak tahan, dia kate,
" ehh adikkk... abgDan macam dah tak larat tau nak obatkan adik...abgDan pikir... ginilah..... adik, abgDan lepaskan ehk?
adik pegi la carik tukangObat lain....tapi....kalau adik pegi jumpa ustad-ustad ni sumer kan, diorang tak tahu tau. Diorang tau aper benda-benda macam ni sumer?"  <<< yo...ahli agama! korang dengar tak?
 tapi, aku kater TAKBOLEH! TAKBOLEHHHHH LEPASKAN SITI! OBATKAN SITI!
 setiap kali dia cuba lari... aku tarik dia balik
 sehingga timbul dialogue ni
"adikkk... adik dah baik tau, jadi tammatlah pengobatan kiter"
"yer ke? tapi macm blom baik ejer adik rasa..."
"tu perasaan adik aje lah... dah, dahhh.... lupakan tu sumer.... mimpi lah adik...tu sumer mimpi aje..........................
.....................tapi adik ingat ehk.... aper yg dah berlaku antara kiter,
ni sumer rahsia tau.  jangan bilang siaper-siaper tau"
"rahsia...? tapi adik macam nak report kat polis tau.... tentang aper abgDan dah buat PADA adik dan DENGAN adik"
 aper lagi? bomohPondanYangPandaiBalas-Membalas ni pon kunci mulut sitiAkuPunyer!
 tapi
 sitiPunyerALLpersonalPrivatePolis&PrivateInvestigator...HQchiefInspector, headOfHeadOfSuperitendent blah, blah, blah.....
 mcm... err... tak suka gittu biler  kedi kacau pompan
 then somewhere in-between...
"abgDan, kalau pengobatan dah selesai, kan kena pulang ahhh aperttu...? garrram whatever....?
kalau benar-banar adik dah baik dari sakit, apsal abgDan tak mintak adik pulangkan benda garam-garrram ni sumer....hahhh?
"TAK PAYAH DIKKK..... KES NI, SPECIAL KES...... KITA BAWAK KE SYURGA EH DIKKK?"
 chorus[mysiti&me] : OH PELLLISSS!!!
 urusan dunia pon tak leh angkat, nak pikir syurga konoooooonnnnnn
 then somewhere in-between...
"adik, benda-benda halus yg kacau-kacau adikkk ni kan....abgDan taruk dalam botol....
malam-malam kan, dia goyang-goyang nak kluar...."
 kengkawansssssssss!!! aper kater, kita masokkan pondanHalus ni dalam botol?
 coz...
 both mysiti&me has come to de consensus that tizPondan *ux BIGTIME!!!
 yo ChiefOfChiefKengkawans...! yo si...sif..sifusiti, awak setuju?
 awak dont worry k, awaknyer sitisifu tak luak pon bang oiii
 urOneAndOnlyHoney
 shez   u n t o u c h e d !
 yet 
 ooooooo..... panas!panas!panas!
 kiter jaga punyer jaga punyer jaga dia baik-baiks, cantik-cantiks....ketat-ketats 
 untuk awaklah.....siaper lagi?
 tinggal drill jek
 mysiti kan interiordesigner...? so mysifu blajar-blajar lah jadi bobDeBuilder ehk?
 errr.... ader yg jeles???  lelaki, pompan or de in-betweens...? hahh? any takers...?
 then somewhere in-between...
"adikkk...! obatkan adik NI kan.... benar-benar mencabar abgDan tau!
adik tau tak? abgDan muntah kaler ijau tau!!!"
[siti tot] : apsal i kena marah pulak? dia ni kan tukangObat...apsal complain-complain ni?
ni kan part-and-parcel of his profession? ade ke patut patient kena marah?
 mysiti vomits various colours and she NEVER make a big deal abt it
 mysiti even vomits colours of rainbows but has always been quiet
 & btw...
 mysiti saw endless gallons of liquidBlue
 gushing out of her [ain't oursiti amazing, mysifudear?!!!]
 ohhh wat have u, bomohkedi???!!! WAT HAVE YOU???!
 and even if if if you want to ans me, check tiz out...>>> i do NOT wish to hear you!!!



 

YA TUKANGOBAT YG JUGA SELF-CLAIMED 'ORANG BAIK-BAIK',
TERLEBIH DAHULU,
ORANG BAIK-BAIK YG SEBENAR-BENARNYA BETUL-BETUL PUNYER BAIK,
MANA ADER SEBUT PERKATAAN SEPERTI 'CELAKA'?
SIAPA YANG ADER SHARE PERKATAAN  C   E   L   A   K   A   NI?
KAU PON MEMBER APER

kau dengan abg ipar siti aper kurangnyer?

petang ni ader yg nak berbuka kat rumah makbapak mertua dia
aper santapan untuk binatang ni berbuka?
makanan yg p a s t i   t a k   k o s o n g
dari neraka
kalau kau nak yg serupa dgn abg ipar dia
aku ader deliveryGhostRider

dan
haji yang kau tunaikan tu.... buat buang duit jek... huhhh!

sebelum subuh, 2hbRamadhan1428,
kalau siti masih tak terima HAK SIFU DIA,
perasaanSitiYgDaraYgCukupHebat tu
(yang kau perasan kau punyer)...
kau akan jadi M A Y A T   B E R J A L A N

ooiii bomoh! ambik calculator................

kira-kira, untung ke tak untung SifuSiti?
p e r a s a a n H e b a t S i t i
akanAkuTambah&LipatGandakan
khas kerana cinta siti pada sifu dia
CINTA IKHLAS
amacam bomoh... kau setuju? kau rela? rela ke tak rela? mesti  i k h l a s tau

bila dah selesai, pi mandi hadas
takde tapi-tapi lagi... teros BeRaMbOs!
kalau nak sangat paku buah keras
pi sungaiBuloh
sifusiti, awak tau kan kat maner nak masokkan paku tu?
carik paku yg banyak karat ehk?

b e r m u l a   s e l e p a s   s u b u h ,   2 h b R a m a d h a n 1 4 2 8
d i a l o g u e   f l a s h b a c k
"ehh adikkk... tempat maner ni adik dah pegi merayap ahh?"
"takde pon, adik pi melancong aje kat luar negeri"
"negeri mana arr? apsal lepas satu puak... satu puak yg datang kat abgDan arr?"
"haaahhh?" *blur*
crite blom abis ah... skang, puak yang mane kau nak dulu Ramdan?
dayak? iban? sakai? how about puakA?
sebab nak tuntut bela lah kau dah kacau QUEEN dorang

myBELOVEDhoney, i need u

siti1710 : morng.  Dwgs, anyone?
D5Andrew : Yes
D5Riana[10:48:18am] : Siti... i hope u would kindly reduce askg us whether we have drgs or not... u r e designer n 2 b statn at ofc. I hope u understand tat..
siti1710 : No riana, don b confused.  Y do i come to ofiz if i hv nothg to do?  Hang around there n claim $ whn i DONT hv dwgs to do = claimg Cheat $.  I m NOT into CHEAT $ !!!  Even Andrw did not sms me blunt words but i'll come to ofiz bcoz Andrew replied wif a plain 'yes'
siti1710 : For heaven sake, sharon told me,  "dave&riana can draw themselves, so u do dwgs for de rez".  Mark my words,  FRM TIS MOMENT ONWARDS U DO UR OWN DWGS,  I SHAL KEEP DAVE BUT UR NAME TO B STRIKEOFF FRM MY LIST.  Any idea y i HATE malays?  U r one fine example.  Get LOST!
D5Riana[11:15:06am] : No siti.. dont get me wrg.. 2 me work means works... its not abt cheat moneyor anythg like tat... n dont take ppl plain ans as sumthg tat not meant 2 b... n 4 ur info im not MALAY n as org Islam ive e rite 2 advise my own ppl... its ok if u strike me off n ask 2 get lost... Org Islam dont do tat... n u hav no rite 2 do tat also...
siti1710 : Wat if i say I m NOT siti?  I DONT CARE abt ur synthetic-genuine RACE.  MYSITI is NOT pure malay too but her race still fallz undr 'malay' n she NEVER make a big deal abt it.  MYSITI claims she belongs to de HUMANRACE n she is one of MyCreations.  READ TIZ : BCOZOF U, I DO not ALLOW MYSITI TO B PRESENT @ DE OFIZ TODAY even tho @ tis point shez on de way there, i shout Detour!Detour!Detour!  MyDearAndrew, u decide the fate of MYSITI s ur staff coz it matters not even if she has to leave.  Let MySiti know & my menInWhite shall collect her stuff.
D5Riana[11:45:46am] : If u r not SITI... its best tat i dont persue tis discussn wif sum1 who dont care abt RACE... RACE tells alot abt sum1...
D5Sharon[12:01:44pm] : pls call me this thing need to settle asap i cant let all these thing going like this u guys need to let me know n not confront among yourself pls think of the company benefit
siti1710 : MYSITI&ME SHARE DE SAME MOBILE NO.  For WhoIAm,  surf http://cherrylicious.tripod.com
siti1710 : Siti is not here.  I m Not siti.  No discussn required wif MySiti.  MySiti's favouritePerson & MALEboss, ANDREW, shall decide.  Andrew, wait up for someone to contact u n tell him de answer re ur decision.  He is SIFUSITI. He is MySiti'sBELOVEDSifu
D5Sharon[12:25:20pm] : Ok andrew is busy right now he will want siti to continu workin n we will talk to Riana pls for us is sample work come 1st. If he not happy with her we will not confirm her at the 1st place
D5Sharon[12:29:47pm] : Pls ask siti to come today as tomorrow we will be out of town 4 a few day so need to hand some work 4 her if she want she can complete at home 4 the time being we will settle this when we back on monday hope u understand our position
D5Sharon[12:36:08pm] : As i told siti b4 she is important to the office i appreciate her 4 helping the company to save money n 4 myself n andrew we treat everyone as equal as i told siti if she have any problem she tell us if we can we will help we never ill treat her n of these thing all my drawing have to put on hold do u think u guys are fair to us.
siti1710 : Leave de dwgs on her desk.  Write down details.  I do Not allow mysiti to b @ d5 today.  MrsAndrew, tell mrAndrew Not to turn off his mobile fon.  Siti'sSifu will call Andrew n tell him who sitisifu REALLY is.  Btw, inform ur other half dat i like him.  Andrew is a charitable man.  DO NOT CONTACT ANY OF SITI'S FAMILY MEMBERS.
D5Sharon[12:42:32pm] : What we need to say is that much i dno't know much about all your religion but this is a office problem nothing to do with religion hope u guys dno't mix everything together we just want to work in harmony now the Decesion is on u
D5Sharon[12:46:57pm] : Will do btw there is no reason we calling any of u this is our office issue
D5Sharon[12:48:57pm] : Andrew will never off his hp he in the office n there is no reception
siti1710 : Very well.  PEACE!

assalammualaikum sifusiti,
mylove, mysiti'sLOVE,
u are given all de rights to communicate with andrew @ +6590073877
at anytime at all
at de convenience of de both of you
and i say NO ONE ELSE should contact andrew unnecessarily! all calls made to andrew is being tapped,
beginning from
1 sec ago, until forever
thank you
however, sifusiti, ur first call to andrew should be between de veri moment u read tiz entry
and
Sunday 16thSeptember2007 11:59:59pm
sifusiti, u have all de rights to mingle with people @ d5,
eXcEpTrIaNaSiDeK
come visit sitisifu as u please
do whatever with her as u please
myMenInWHITE are on 24/7 standby to clear your path to reach her
i bestow on youBoth myMiracle sealed with
honeySmearedSweetnezInSweetByRightNoAntsShouldComeCloseToSitisifuButSifusiti
p       e       a       c      e

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mysweethoney

D5Sharon[04:50:23pm] 12th September 2007 :
can u call andrew now he is free now
i am unwell honey, i am very very unwell... pls pls tell them not to bother me
i wanna have some sleep

honeysuckeliciouslymine
i'm veri much intrique wif tis song in de album satudalamseribu
de one dat contains teez veri words
"... suatu ketika, suatu ketika... suatu ketika akan tiba...
bila ummah manusia, seluruh dunia... bila ummah manusia, bisa sejahtera..."
honey. confident sungguh broyasin kan? wat inspires him? do u see wat i see... his concretebelief?
then itz no wonder teez handsome words.. like tuanpunyabadan... & do u notice tis fella has sexy lips?
newayz, tis song is gonna make it
and i say makeitbig
so listen up!!! royalty shall make itz  way DIRECT to yasinsulaiman's account, insyaALLAH, aameen ya Rabb!
and all de people dat make tiz album possible, dey'r all supertalented! need i m... mm... mmm... mmmention u?
do u know how much i admire ur bro-in-law, or thereabts, ur relation wif him. s.amin.shahab <<<--- honey, tiz one'z a definite no-nonsence man
and tiz cenderawasih, nurbisa-guy... i met him @ de neighbourhood library sometime bac... de one abt 5 mins frm ma home, by foot
n abt de speed of faster than lightning if i fly
aper dia buat kat situ arr?
honey, apper itu 'kopratasa'? someone's name...? or a name of a group...? it sort o' ring a bell
some names are not familiar to me, but then hey u...sahabat lu sahabat gua juga kan? hehehe
allow me dear, to recite my supplication dat de whole album shall NOT fail u & me = us
enciksifusiti, sambutlah wif aameen, k?

specific people in London, do u hear mysiti? artfazil, she needs ur help re de above
and btw, sambut her ikhlastapijauhsalam will u, mydearboy? 3 ,2 ,1...
ashleyisham, she paints her sweetnezInSweetRegards to u too
: ) mysiti   : ) artfazil   : ) ashleyisham

eyyyo abgmawi, awak nak stuorbewwi miuk? nak? nak... nak... nakkk?
kiter share nak tak? *wink*
but first, awak ader numberterifon ALLAH?

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myBelovedHoney
my hubby and me are watching 'walisongo'[de screenbox original]
he bought it tis morning
i tak begitu faham bahasa indonesia but i continued watching
all of a sudden, dalam kalbu i terasa sesuatu
itz not nervousness tapi sesuatu seakannya yang lebih halus
i terpanggil untuk membaca alFateha & niat i demi wali-wali ni dan demi Islam
wud u care to join me recite, please... pretti pleaseee?
u tak rindu ke kat wali-wali ni sumer? orang kuat agama tau!!!
and i hava vision
i seolah dapat bayangkan kebangkitan Islam, honey!!!
ain't tiz sweet dear?
if i ever play a part in this, i'd wanna do it with u *wink*
i read The Opening three times
then i fetched a mug of airzamzam and shared it wif ma hubby
i asked that he read some supplication on his part
and i read mine
we drank from de same spot[i teringatkan kekanda i, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. &
i teringatkan keintiman dan kemesraan Rasulullah & Aisyah]
honey, i rindu Baginda
btw honey, my hubby, he's ever so nice to me
said mahubby, "do u feel comfy dear? make urself comfy. i want u to b & feel comfy"
i said to him, " no dee, i want you to b & feel comfy"
"no..no...don't worry abt me" said he
he kept on kissing me and he tells me time and agin that he loves me
and he pat me on de back and stroke ma hair
he speaks his gentlest
& especially so today!
watz de significance of today dear?
i cant help but feel good today
newayz, debaran dalam dada ini semakin terasa
and letting u know is de next natural thing to do
itz a calling
honey, i rindu u
honey, i really do!
honey, do u miss me too?

earlier this evening, i went out with ma hubby & parents
di minda i ni, asyik ada u, u & it has to be u
i bought something fer u, something that i have too
i'd like that it reach you de soonest, insyaALLAH
i gez it depends on my health? coz i feel quite different now
de inside of my head feels weird too
honey, pls say my name, will u?
& i thirst for one alFateha from u
u, u & it has to come from ONLY u

today seems somewhat special
honey, i rasa gembira campur tenang campur rindu pada u
and like... i rindu u all de time!!!
how do i demonstrate tiz?

with all words of endearment
yourHoneySmearedRedAnthuriumSoCherryliciouslysweetIWishNotToAttractAnyAntsToComeCloseButYou
 

myhoneydearest
as soon as i arrived here, i went to see my hubby @ his workplace
i am so tired, it seems like a long haul journey
neways, i juz bought wat i need and head straight home
i feel like throwing up... is tis anutha round of being unwell?
tapi sempat jugak beli Mawi's latest cd : )
btw, ader smethg i nak tell u, honey
hmmm, i am pretti upset most of de times when i wake up... berapa kali ni i nak kena mandi hadas arr?
kalau ngan u, as in... de asli u, i rela jugak
i phobia nak tido tau
tapi nak taknak terpaksa tido coz i need some rez
me dream of u; u dream of me, k honeywoney... nitezzz

hi cifu, kakak bought for citi HL stuorbewwi miuk... cedaaap! nak? kekeke
kiwim calam abgmawi ehk? dia boyfuen kiter tau
cweetdweem cifu
muacccks cifu : )
 

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starring Izrail
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other s.t.a.r.s

kau             aku             dia
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pihak pompan masuk dulu
isteri HK, kenapa dan mengapa pandang siti mcm gitu?
JANGAN BERANI datang dalam jaga dan/atau tidur dia lagi
aku tak suka!!!
mata kau belum buta, apa kau nak aku tarik semula itu semua?
kalau nak cari gaduh, aku turut serta

niece HK (siti's ex-schoolmate @ temasekSecondarySchool)
acting skills very de *ucking flawless
at first... siti 'is my good friend' but later... conspire wif uncle against her
you have NO idea wat kinda mother*ucker your uncle is
so i say, stay out of this!!!
re your "get a life" to siti, refer to siti's reply : "i have a life to run"
your story has been archived in siti'sFlickeringStar's record
as a reminder, you are a potential spinster
 

pihak lali-laki kemudian
disusuli kaum kerabat sitiAkuPunyer

orangDarul bley fasten ur safety belt walau lampu isyarat belum pun dihidupkan
manalah tau kan...? kalau-kalau ader air turbulance

medicinePpl who have given treatment to mySiti[all her life]... tiz doesnt mean u come after orangDarul coz...
i can put you as 1stPriority anytime i want
make ur choice...! singaporeairlines, nepalairlines, angelair, roadtohellair, highwaytoheavenair...etc...etc...etc...

friends, foes and acquaintances of sitisifu
i'm flipping thru your veri pages&chapters too

Y a a s i n
s e t a n g g i
l i g h t s !   c a m e r a !   a c t i o n !

*************

myhoney, i ader urusan ngan malaikatmaut
i'll add my entry[ies] to you later
kita kat sini busy...veri b.z. ni
kalau kiter matikan watak pengarah tu [mamat Private Investigator tu],
tak seronoklah citer ni nanti...
newayz, title dia pon pengarah aper...he shud know better
betul ke tak betul wahai pengarah muda bermata kuyu, dreamy-eyed idiot,
kalau watak engkau aku habiskan, tammatlah crite nampaknyer
bukan criter koranglah bodoh! criter dia ejer...
dia idop ke tak idop,
criter korang tetap roll...

music ppl, if you like, you can have some music accompaniment
make ur choice : )
any tracks from BourneIdentity, BourneSupremacy or BourneUltimatum
and btw, set de equalizer right. Njoy!!!

honey

i dengar suara-suara bising dan sesuatu lari lintang-pukang, like 'gedebak-gedebuk', u know wat i mean?
& therez tis woman's voice..."ehh? mana mayat aku? mana mayat aku?!!!"
buat sebok jek si gila ni satu clan... but then, dia punyer suka lah kan

newayz, i juz received 2 sets of 4 numbers each. these are the years of my deaths to come... oh well, watevvva!

to date with, i have died three times, and this... wat i can recall. wat i dont rembr, i cant comment on that, of coz.
my recent death was the most comical.
i was @ de burial ground and i saw many many people
my spirit was uplifted the moment i saw my mom's face. she was smiling away. she looked realli happy... like redha
but the whole lot of people did not notice me
i was on a higher plane... overlooking them
when the crowd began to disperse, i drift along wif my mom, but shez de physical her, and me in thin air
juz b4 we left the compound, i saw one makeshift stall selling gez what? durians!!!
[i thot] huhh? watz de significance? watz de meaning of all thizzz?
b4 it was over, i saw there were one or two more such stalls selling de same thing.
honey, if there shud b any business thang going around @ such a place, aren't they spposed to be selling flowers and such...?
bunga kubur, datz wat i mean...
siaper yg nak pi makan durian kat tanah perkuburan?
yg mengiringi jenazah tu ke... jenazah tu sendiri?
comical kan...? kan, kan, kan?

hi honey
telapak tangan i ni, kulit dia peel off lah
itchy pulak tu... gatal sangat-sangat... it has been like tiz fer quite some time
aper makna sumer ni ehh?
hmmm...
both my palms tau
and @ de centre of both, kulitnya merekah
macam peta pulak... hehehe
itz like as tho de map of nepal is in my hand... err.. both hands...
de actual image & de mirror image
hehehe
my hubby told me to apply some cream whc DrLoh prescribed & i did
DrLoh is my dermatologist @ Dermatology Associates
oh btw DrLoh, &off track a little, there was thiz one perasan fake-female promoter...
she said to me
"wat do they know...? wat do all these Drs know...?
you go to them and they don't even know de right medication or solution to prescribe for you...
so dooonnn't ever waste your time and money to see them..."
[ hear tiz I ] "buy my product... my product is good the doctors do NOT have anything like this in their clinic!"
my reflex-kinda-reply, "i trust my dermatologist"
[ hear tiz II ] "ur wwwaaattt?"
said me, "d-e-r-m-a-t-o-l-o-g-i-s-t!!!"
fake-female promoter who's concerned only with de profit to b generated, " derm...dermmm...dermmmaWWWaaattt?!"
my whisper, "...f...f...fakeFur! dermaYourHeadGodDamnIt!"
i looked at her straight in de eye and thot, "looking down on ppl is juz NOT my style however,
it doesn't make sense that a sales promoter KnOwS bEtTeR than the doctor... err...
which college or university do you graduate from? and err...
how much commission do they give you for each product you sell?"
If you happen to be @ NUH pharmacy, my dearest DrLoh : ) ,
you can wash her sick brain thorougly, there and then.
Fur needs dry-cleaning, is that right? oh well, who cares... she's fake aaannnyway.
And DrLoh, don't forget your gloves fer acid is milder than her"
& i also gunakan inai
u tau kan? inai has healing properties
bsides, i notice ade perubahan dengan keadaan diri i
i mean... de physical me and perhaps inside-out
waktu i jumpa DrYap dulu, i penah kater pada dia
"do u know... i live NOT bcoz of de blood dat runs in me, NOT even bcoz of de organs i have in me
& NOT bcoz of de oxygen i breathe..."
"and thennn...? how is it possible that you live?" she asked
"bcoz of my love for ALLAH... bcoz of my trust in HIM... bcoz of my conVVVictioNNN!"
"i live becoz ALLAH say so. I live becoz of ALLAH'S WILL!"
wif de deepest sincerity in me, i tak pon berniat utk 'tunjuk pandai' kepada sesiapa includg DrYap...i wish she knew
but I juz felt sooo much confidence wif Islam and in ALLAH.. & I am still, and insyaALLAH shall always will...aameen, syukur alhamduLILLAH : )
DrYap, if u hear tiz, i am truly sorrry. I didnt mean to challenge you at all : (
like... who knows de patient better than her doctor herself, right?
so i'll c ya in abt 3wks and a half...?
newayz honey, u tau tak, waktu i betul-betul ngah sakit dulu
salah satu doa yg i panjatkan kepada ALLAH
ialah untuk Dia Rawati diri i
fenomena yg i alami sekarang ni is as tho
segala-gala tentang diri i yg rosak
seakan sedang
diTukar baru... or
diGanti baru... hmmm...
make sense ke sumer ni?
i sedar, siapalah diri yg kerdil ini kan...sehingga teringinkan special treatment sebegitu
namun
i benar-benar pasti dan i amat yakin
ALLAH Amat Baik & Amat Memahami
He is de ULTIMATE HEALER
I sayang ALLAH tau
I cintakan My Creator

ALLAHUAKHBAR!
ALLAHUAKHBAR!
ALLAHUAKHBAR!

honey, i baruuu nak hve my meal
alih-alih i kena marah tak tentu pasal
i ingat, " ehh? appper ni...? apahal i kena marah ni?"
depan rezki u!
membebeeelll ajer dia tau
mmg dari kat darul dulu ...sideni suka potray the image that he's someone with authority
like 'hey, i'm in-charge'
'i know best'
'tis wan like tis... tis wan like dat...y u don tis... y u don dat...' (membebeeelll lah tu)
newayz, dia dtg sendirian... dia solo, sama mcm bila dia jadi matRempit
itu tak kena, ini tak kena
it seems nothing please him
mula-mula i dengar jek aper dia kater
i mcm kena pukau... and then i tot...arhhh...??? takde makna seyyy!
so i continue jer lah makan
& biarkan dia bebual ngan my furnitures and dinding
@ de same time, macam-macam i baca...
sifu, u kenal talam kan?
u kenal talamduamuka kan?
i tau u tau dan i tau si talam tu tak kenal lagi dulang i
sekali aku hennntakkk!kat kapla hotak dier ni kang!
ni baru dulang i...blom masok u nyer tempayan
pssst... dia pakai badan u lah sifu
tapi i tau lah yang mane asli yang mana ciplak
appa namma... dia ni mmg asli pon... i ingat dia kapla org asli sehingga org asli pon tak ngaku dia sedara asli

honey
i mintak maaf my sista ganggu u memalam buta
dia ni mengigau gaknyer
bising sangat... budak kecikkan namanyer...?
"shifuuu... shifuuu... "
"shifuuu... mangunnnnnnnnnn..."
i dengar commotion so i terjaga then i nampak the abang version of u toking to her
"shhh...shhh.....takde...!takde...!nabi muhammad takde telefon number! shhh...shhh...shhh...tidddo...tidddo...shhh..."
pannndaiii sista i carik u? ohhh...u gave her ur no ehh...? abih kakak dia? ciannn i
newayz afta my sista has gone bac to sleep, i asyik terpandang kat u tapi u tak angkat muka u pon
de adult me nak sangat mata kita bertentangan but...
my late ustadz came
i tunduk malu
i respect dia sangat-sangat
dan i tak mau kalau commotion tu ganggu dia
atau andai... tingkah laku i dia tak suka
so i lihat dia buat seketika untuk lepas rindu
and i went bac to sleep

later in de day, i terisak-isak menangis coz i teringatkan my late ustadz... 'miss' kinda feeling

u tau tak sifu, besides ur two cd sleeves i have wif me when i go to sleep,
i juga ada my late ustadz's cd sleeve too
the one he did on '3QUL'
do u hava copy of dat honey?
informative
idop
kelasss!

LIVE ISLAM; DE REZ DOESNT MATTER

sweetsifu
kakak kan... she has so much to speak to u abt
biasa arr kan? pompan kan banyak mulut...? kekeke.. mwacccks shifu

honeysuckeliciouslymine, de saying goes, "knowledge speaks, wisdom listens"
and i do wonder at times, if i have any knowledge to even make a speak
seganlah nak berbicara ngan awak, realli
awak ni bukan calang-calang orang
someone i truely love, admire, respect and honour
someone i look up to and hold in HIGH REGARD
nonetheless
wateva persoalan yg i dah ajukan pada u, actually, u don't even have to ans them
coz u sing it clear, clearly, in fact itz crystalclear
'diam tidak bererti aku tak mengerti..." [ or somethg like that, how it goes]
newayz, if knowledge nak dera wisdom lagi bley tak?
kekeke :P
knowledge nak tanyer wisdom
agak-agak... which version of me do u like or want or prefer?
coz i nak make sure, i mix de rrright concoction fer u to enjoy
do u want me... errr... de suci version...?
or de shu Qi version?
and i pon tau, u & i,
kiter sama-sama *uckable & *uckeliciouslyeachothers' : )
kalau takde aper-aper keuzuran, jangan lupa solat jumaat eh honey
and perhaps, an alfateha fer me? thx dear
honeysuckeliciousliyours

bab suci-suci ni sumer kan, broHafeezG memang pandaaaiii... yo broHafeezG, gimme a five *5* kekeke...

hi sifu
i juz feel a little disturbed of teez thots coz ade someone ni dia kate
"ehh adikkk.. asal pukul 12malam aje adik tengok cermin kan?
mesti nak tengok muka adik kat cermin kan?"
mana addderrr sifu?
i tak buat tu sumer tau
kalau i letih, normally by then i dah in bed
otherwise i do other stuff
tengok tv ke... surf internet ke...read some materials...
read selawat n zikir
& sometimes i do solat malam jugak tau
mane ade cermin-cermin stuff ni?
i tak faham! i tak faham! i tak faham!
kira-kira dia ni dah tuduh i tau
u tau tak sifu, nak apply moisturiser pon i malas
ape benda si dia ni merepek hahhh?
i nak put tiz aside coz menganggu ketenteraman i, minda i
i simply hate all teez nonsence
but beberapa ari yg lepas, when i was in de bus...on de way hme frm de studio
he was there too u know!
dia ingat i tak dapat hidu
tapi i tau... but i buat dek aje lah
pusing kiri tak kena
pusing kanan tak kena
dia tak kena gaya terus pressed de bell to alight
i rimas tau si selenger-selenger ni sumer ikut-ikut i
i gellliiiiiiiiii... ibuuu... takkknakkk! ohtidddakkk!
aperrr diorang tak cermin muka diorang ke?
ade mcm penyu
ade mcm unta
mcm kerang pun ader
aperr diorang ingat i ni buta ke?
newayz, bukan i tengok pada paras rupa pon...
but kalau i detect ader muslihat jek
i benci! benci! benci!

sifu, say a prayer fer me will u dear? : )

sweethoneysuckeliciouslymine
if itz eva possible do call me : )
@ anytime at all
@ ur convenience
i wish for it to b now or as soon as u recv tiz very entry

tho saya tak begitu pasti if u do hv my mobile no
i feel like you do know it, funny kan?
newayz, wallahualam

a short sms @ de midst of textg tiz entry
D, do u mind if m**sir eva b my acquaintance? wat if we kip in touch tru calls or emails etc frm tis moment onwards?
Sure abg dun mind la..
Thx d. U r simply undrstanding. : )
: )
 

syukur alhamduLILLAH

sweetsalam honeysuckeliciouslymine
pagi yang indah, tengahari yang indah, petang yang indah, malam yang indah untuk hari-harimu dan hari-hariku yang mendatang
hari-hari kita : )
awaaaaaaakkk, cinnniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
kiter nak tanyerrr awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
apppe tu?
appperrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrtttttttttttttttttttttuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...?
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
u made me lose my senses last night
arrrhhhhhhh [ <<< actually tension realli coz i had no idea wat itz abt... *blur* ]

later, i saw u in red velvety outfit
de perfect hue, de intensity i prefer
ehemmm... mcm hangtuah in puterigunungledang ehh?
tapi lebih hencummm
veridedeliciouslymine gitttu
mmm...dearme,bonappetit!

u... u...
look like one pengantin lelaki
u looked ur most shy
apppppppppppppeeeeeerrrrrrr sumerrr niiiiiiiiiiiiii?
awak... err... awak gettng married agin ke?
dengan siapa?
mana pelaminnyerrr? kita tak nampak pon...
i saw dat de hall was fullhouse
saya terlihat diri awak, de kadi who nikahkan me to my hubby dulu... hahhhhhhhhhh???!!! ape kena mengena ni sumer ngan ustzPsnMln?[ newayz salam ustaz : )]
and... n.... & saya juga hadir di majlis itu
kiter tiga-tiga horrrang kat atas stage
i was all dazed... saya terpinga-pinga... [ ??? ]
who's ur bride honey?
but most importantly
congratulations... tahniah : )

honeysuckeliciouslymine... mwacccksss!

awak tau tak... awak datang tepat pada waktunya
saya seakan terlihat petanda... atau adakah ia alamat?
tempat itu seperti tiz little studio di mana saya bekerja sekarang
tapi saya tak beritahu awak pon saya bekerja di situ
bagaimana awak dapat tau pulak?
dan masanya... suatu ketika yang saya tak duga
seolah awak dapat baca fikiran saya
hati saya
naluri saya
awak ni bijak dan jinak ehh?
sesungguhnya saya asyik terfikir dan terbayangkan diri awak
dan saya amat merindui diri awak
dan saat itulah awak hadir
raut wajah awak penuh dengan tanda tanya namun tetap tenang
sekali pun saya terlalu rindu dan sayangkan awak
saya tidak menyentuh diri awak
begitu juga diri awak
tenung, renung, renung, tenung...*repeat* *repeat* *repeat*
dan sekalipun saya terlalu inginkan 'quality time' dengan awak
saya terpaksa tinggalkan awak [mudah-mudahan buat seketika sahaja]
kerana ada urusan yang perlu saya attend to
my parents, my family
mereka perlukan perhatian saya
hingga saya tak sempat terangkan masalah saya
tapi
awak seakan memahami
dan awak tidak berganjak
you kept on staring @ me

andai awak benar-benar dapat hadir dalam hidup saya
syukur alhamduLILLAH
bukan saya nak bebankan awak dengan masalah saya
tapi sekurang-kurangnya, saya ada teman bicara
seseorang yang jauh lebih matang dan arif dari diri saya

saya sangat suka style awak
seperti gaya awak dalam cd sleeve 'srikandicintaku'
sekali pandang, terus ecstasy...mmm...
still, saya pelik apsal awak look like you get younger by the years
gaya awak dalam cd sleeve 'sangpencinta'
makes me feel like u're a teenager
when i was much younger, gaya saya mirip mcm gaya awak
apsal awak nampak muda?
awak pakai susuk ehh?
nortynorty... piakkk! :P

kedua-dua cd sleeve ini menjadi teman saya di waktu tidur
and i place a blue organza pouch filled wif lavender by de side :)
and a purple organza pouch filled with natural freshener of bunga rampai too : )

i love wildflowers.. dya love?

Dengan nafasmu aku hidup
Karena tawamu aku bahagia
Hidup di dunia

Bersama dirimu aku tegar
Karena hatimu adalah yang terbaik
Untuk dimiliki

Dan biarkan aku mencintaimu
Karena dirimu yang berarti
Dan izinkan aku menyayangimu
Hanyalah dirimu yang berharga

Ketika kau ada di sampingku
Hidupku pun terasa damai
Seperti yang telah terbayangkan dalam benakku
Di saat hatiku ada di hatimu
Dunia pun menjadi indah
Karena hatimulah yang aku inginkan

Karena hadirmu aku bermakna
Jadikan hidupku seakan di nirwana
Di alam dunia

Samsons - Dengan Nafasmu

honey
cheerymorning to u & cheeryday : )
i looked out de window to feast my eyes on the greeneries
i suka lihat greeneries as soon as i wake up
u tau kan...? good fer the eyes : )
& i said salam to allllll de greens my eyes cud see
they're cheery and happy, syukur alhamduLILLAH
and each time it rains, i'd say... syukur ya Rabb! tiz is food for de vegetation : )
newayz, when i was staring @ de leaves, something yellow appeared and flew away
terlalu cepat i tak pasti wat it was
cud be a bird... cud also b butterfly
i gez de female flew and then follwed by the male?
there were 2 of them
sweet kan? and romantic too... hehehe

therez tis one particular tree juz outside my window, tiz one's my favourite tree
satu ketika dulu, i detect it was sick
dari warna daun-daunnyer, i dah dapat kepastian pokok ni tak sihat
and i bisik kepada ALLAH tentang keadaan pokok ni
walau dia tak sihat, i tetap pandang kat dia
i tot, awak... kita serupa ehh? i was unwell too   : ( my favourite tree   : ( me
tapi sekarang, syukur alhamduLILLAH
kita sama-sama dalam proses pemulihan
i do feel dat i am getting better
and de tree look likewise

the two butterflies
they came not from tiz tree
they came from the leaves of my favourite tree's gf

: ) my favourite tree : ) me

Bumi yang tiada rimba
Seumpama hamba
Dia dicemar manusia
Yang jahil ketawa

Bumi yang tiada udara
Bagai tiada nyawa
Pasti hilang suatu hari
Tanpa disedari

Bumi tanpa lautan
Akan kehausan
Pasti lambat laun hilang
Duniaku yang malang

Dewasa ini kita saling merayakan
Kejayaan yang akhirnya membinasakan
Apalah gunanya kematangan fikiran
Bila di jiwa kita masih lagi muda
Dan mentah
Ku lihat hijau

Bumiku yang kian pudar
Siapa yang melihat
Di kala kita tersedar
Mungkinkah terlewat

Korupsi,opresi,obsesi diri
Polusi,depressi,di bumi,kini

Oh..anok-anok
tokleh meghaso mandi laok
Besaing,maing ghama-ghama
Ale lo ni tuo umurnyo bejuto
Kito usoho
Jauhke dari malapetako
Ozon lo ni koho nipih nak nak aghi
Keno make asak
Hok biso wei,pasa maknusio
Seghemo bendo-bendo di dunio
Tokleh tehe
Sapa bilo-bilo

hijau - agentZA1710

sifu, sifu, sifu...honeysuckeliciouslymine...gerammm! gerammm! gerammm!!!
newayz, dat last paragraph tu, ape bende si zainal tu bebual hahhh?
i mcm faham... tapi tak faham

: ) honeysuckeliciouslymine : ) honeysuckeliciousliyours
rindu dendam dalam gerammm

********************
agentZA1710
when my hubby listened to certain part of 'orak-arek', he said, "hmmm... tribal ehh?"
thots of my sifu auto-drift into my mind and i think brutal
apsal ehh?
does rindudendamdalamgerammm has any association wif brutal?

********************

hi sifu
my hubby & me juz got hme
we stopped by Cheers to get Daisy milk [fer tis child in me]
Oat milk [fer me]
& a pack of m&m's... de yellow pack
my hubby said, "yang, gimme one or two pieces of your m&m's ehh?"
i gave him three
then he said," quick..! quick..! turn on some songs..."
"wat songs do you want?" i asked him
"hmmm... anythin'... anythin' m**sir's"
honeysuckeliciouslymine... who's in love wif who now?
[i tot] ma hubby & me... we are both in love wif you, ur music, ur works, and everythg u :)
d'ya love us sifu?
if u do love us, blow flying kisses our direction, k?
& personally [tho tak paksa] i prefer mine french... kekeke

m&m = m**sir&marh***
m&m = marh***&mdK
m&m = m**sir&marl**
m&m = madu&madu

newayz, sweetRegards&pelukCium to your family, dear sifu :)
sweetnezInSweet

ciiaaakkk! : ) hi shifu
u ngah buat aper?
i am lonely... : (
i takde mood coz kakak pon ngah not in de mood period : (
& shez unwell too : (
she has a temperature and she told dd, " dear, i have discomfort in my head. itz not headache... itz not migraine too... but rather therez tis thing from very very very deep inside of my head". D told her to rez well : ) d is very caring & he always tink of her & care for her. D is sweet u know. I love my deedee :)
newayz, kakak conveys her regards to you dear shifu
i heard her whispers," kalau tak keberatan, wud you care to sedekahkan alfateha for me, honey?"
shez reztg n tho unwell, shez going out in a while to fetch her parents coz itz raining heavily here. she lovez her mom and dad. she really do! yeyyy!
shez listening to 'SrikandiCintaku' and she loves it tapi kan, therez tis song which she loves de melody sooo much but when it comes to a certain part, she'd say,"no...! no...! tell me honey, tis is not abt us...and she'd deny! deny! deny!"

"... perasaanku kau sendakan, kau menyatakan bahwa cinta ini hanyalah permainan"

shifu, tolonnnggglah... u tak tau lagi ke? she lurves you. she breathes you, she eats you, she drinks you.....and de list goes on

yesterday, she fed me Ben&Jerry's CherryGarcia. I yove aichkelim. i yoveee cherry aichkelim. but kakak's favourite i s HaagenDazs' macadamiaBrittle. yumm... yumm...
two days ago, she fed me cupCake, yummmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
kakak tinks cupcake is cute and sweet but shez been looking fer cherryCupCake but nowhere to b found
they'd normlly hv different assortments...

bubaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
tatatititutu

specific laSalle people... r u here?
azreen, suhaimi sukiyar, iskandar jaapar
u three listen up carefully
NEVER have siti fallen in love wif ANY of u, @ de same time or @ different times
dose were ur wildest imaginations
it wasnt even siti u dealt with... & mishandled, dont u three know wat these upcoming 3 words mean?
it was me
siti was all the time wif people who r worth her while, unlike you three

azreen, y did u give her the cigarette?
watz inside the cigarette?
u can start tinkg of ways to clear the mess u created
and dat will b right abt NOW!
does tis sound fair enuff to you...>>> if she lights up any cigarette ever again, then AAALLL that she inhales, shall go to you

suhaimi sukiyar & iskandar jaapar... is dat all u have in mind?
exploit siti... but alas it wasnt her... hahaha... it was me
THE BOTH OF YOU OWE SITI SOME $$$ DON'T YOU?
SUHAIMISUKIYAR, DO YOU THINK THE 2 TICKETS FOR THE BEST SEATS @ YANNI'S CONCERT WAS FREE?
YOURS AND YOUR OTHER CHEAP FRIEND'S
YOU BOTH ARE DIRT CHEEEAP
THE NEXT TIME IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD, DON'T EVEN DREAM OF SUCH THINGS
SO YOU SEE THAT SITI IS LOADED, DIDN'T YOU?
PAY UP! PAY UP! PAY UP!
OR BE DAMNED
DO NOT BEG, BORROW OR STEAL
ISKANDARJAAPAR, DO YOU THINK THE DRAWINGS SHE HAD DONE FOR YOU WAS F.O.C?
YOU DIRTY DIRT
 PAY UP! PAY UP! PAY UP!
OR BE DAMNED
DO NOT BEG, BORROW OR STEAL
do NOT dare meet up with Siti EVER or knock on her parents' door
ring NOT Siti nor any of her family members, relatives or colleagues
arrange NOT to meet any of the above
the $$$ has to reach Siti by hook or by crook
i dont want more i dont want less... i want the EXACT amount
and i say c-a-s-h
be fast or be damned!!!
and tis wordz in bold, lines 1 to 3, yes it applies to Azreen too
iskandar jaapar, wherez razali? dat fren of urs who was siti's ex-collegue from LawishDesignAssociates
that one hypocrite who took siti for a ride, and later slandered her
do u have anything to say siti?
razali disturbs me all de time, but he displays this impression that he's innocent & i am de wild one
eg?
he tailed me to de ladies
when i excused myself in de midst of de company's dinner @ OperaCafe @ Boat Quay
i askd him y he followed me around
he said he juz wanna utilise his time to de fullest
now wif me... & later wif his gf
i told him to go away bcoz i knew then dat he had a gf, but he refused
so i left the room instead
dats de only way to break free from him
wat else dear?
he told his then-gf that i seduce him, when in fact, i didnt
to get away wif catherine's interrogations, he said i was a butch
i am straight. i am straight alright!
tis is the greatest fitnah of all time
yeah... and all de rest turned up for their wedding but you
& all bcoz
i do NOT allow you to mingle wif fools
 

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"saya bukan bomoh ehh... saya tukang obat aje..."

Ramdan who used to work fer BaxGlobal, then & now living in Tampines,
dipersilakan untuk pungut ketiga-tiga benda ni
AZMANABDULSAMAD, JULIANAHODARI & SHAMSUDINKANCIL(kakak dia punyer laki)
kalau kau tak selesaikan apa yang kau patut buat
dengan engkau sekali aku heret, paham???
di antara ketiga-tiga benda ni, tak kisah siapa suruh siapa hantar atau buat apa, dan siapa mulakan dulu
kerana...
angkara ketiga-tiga benda ni
siti jadi mangsa

aku temukan siti dengan kau untuk kau ubatkan dia
tapi... apa kau dah buat pada dia haaahhh?
apa?!!!
kan dari awal lagi siti dah kata, "abgDan, adik mintak abgDan ubatkan adik aje tau, kalau boleh, tolong bersihkan ape2 yg perlu dibersihkan."
dia pesan punyer pesan punyer pesan
dan Ramdan, kau sendiri yg kate pada siti, " Kita tak bermaksud ape2 kan dik? Kita orang baik-baik. Kita sembuhkan diri adik aje."
tapi ade seseorang yg telefon siti dan berkata ini
"Dah dik, abgDan dah balas diorang abis2an."
kata-kata siapakah ini wahai Ramdan ?
siti kate, "haaahhh...? abgDan buat ape?!!! ehh... kan adik dah kate jangan main balas-balas!!! apsal pandai-pandai ni? ape dah jadi...?"
tak berapa lama selepas tu kau kate pada siti, "adik... setakat ini aje pengobatan kita.... abgDan tak boleh teruskan lagi."
"tapi kenapa...? kan abgDan dah janji nak tolong adik... abgDan nak tinggalkan adik sendiri? adik takut...!"
"tak boleh dik... takde isyarat abgDan nak teruskan lagi...adik, adik tak sendiri... adik ada...err...adik ada ALLAH." ( bila part ni, apsal mcm gagap?)

"kalau abgDan dah kate gitu, adik tak boleh paksa... tapi abgDan ingat kata-kata ni tak?  'adik, cinta kita, kita bawa ke syurga ehh?'... abgDan, dengar sini, dengar baik-baik adik nak cakap...adik TAK PERNAH bercinta atau jatuh cinta dengan abgDan. adik keliru kenapa abgDan cakap mcm gitu sekali pada adik....adik ingat abgDan syokkk sendiri."

kau ingat tak dialogue kat atas ni waaahhhaaaiiiRamdan?
dan disambung dengan...
[tengking] "kata LeLaKi...!!!??? kenapa pEnGeCuT!?!!!"
tsk... tsk... tsk... kenapa kau hEmPaS ganggang telefon tu???!!!
siti mungkin tak faham masa itu, tapi aku tau kau tau bahwa ayat terakhir itu adalah kata-kata aku!

pannndai balas-membalas?
sekarang kau selesaikan kerja yang kau dah buat yang siti tak suruh kau buat
siti dalam jagaan aku. JANGAN GANGGU DIA.
kau pernah katakan pada siti, "adik...adik tau tak... anak abgDan yg sorang tu, yg lelaki tu... dia kan, paling baik dlm bnyk budak lelaki tau. dia sopan, dengar cakap makbapak, tak main pompan... " dan pujian2 lain
ape dah jadi sekarang? aku dengar... dia halau kau dari rumah dia kan?
kira-kira, puji-pujian tu untuk ape ehh?
pujian-pujian tu berbaloi ke?
JANGAN TANYA TTG SITI. JANGAN FIKIRKAN DIRI SITI.

dan sebagai kata-kata azimat buat kenang-kenangan,
duit berharga saturibulimaratusdalammatawangsingapura yang kau minta sebagai 'fee'
sebenarnya siang-siang siti dah nampak bahagian mana untuk pengobatan
dan bahagian mana masok kocek kau
bila siti tanyer untuk kau beri penjelasan, kau kate
"ehh adik... apsal banyak tanyer ni ahh? adik tak ikhlas... tu lah... tak ikhlas..."
kemudian kau kate... ketiga-tiga bendaklah tu dah KUNCI mulut siti
tapi siapakah gerangannya yang KUNCI ATAS KUNCI?
hmmm...
kalau dah nama dia 'tukangObat' tu, obatkan aje lah...
yang dinamakan tukangObat tu tak sampai bab balas-membalas
bomoh kah engkau sebenarnya?
pawang kah engkau sebenarnya?
kau kate, "ilmu-ilmu ni semua kan dikkk... jgn main-main ehh nama-namanya"
kemudian kau kate," adik, adik dah kena ilmugerbang"
siapa yang sebenar-benarnya keliru?
siapakah yang sebut nama-nama yg tak patut disebut?

 

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JULIANAHODARI kau matchmake SHAMSUDINKANCILdgn kakak siti kerana s e s u a t u
dalam Shamsudin mengenali keluarga kakak siti, dia ish...ish...ish... fell in love wif siti... sempat eh bakul?
nak sebut semua, boleh... takkan tak boleh pulak kan?
mcm2 ade... telefon siti lewat tengah malam,
ajak siti kluar berdua-duaan,
tried to touch her here and there,
ova familydinner si bakul ni mesti cari kesempatan duduk opposite of siti... kan boleh 'main gesel-gesel kaki"... pasal tak dapat part lain aper?
& aaallllll to which, siti tak layan kau kan bakul?
in fact whn u calld her ( & a few other times  wayyy afta 12am), she said," why do u call me? what do u want?"
"takde... boring kan....so i call u....i ngat nak nengok wayang ..."
"ok jugak, cite ape? nanti i inform my brother and my cuzin... we all can catch a movie together..."
"no... don't...! i taknak pegi ngan diorang... i thot maybe... juz the two of us..."
siti thot [wattt?!!!], " ehh... mana my sista...? wherez my sis?"
"alaaah...jgn tanyer pasal dia lah... shez sleeping..."
"u know, u r not s'pose to be askg me all tiz and callg me at such hours in de first plc. U shud b sleeping with my sista!"
and she slammed de fon on de bakul... ciannn
ciannnnnnnnnnnnnn
ciannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
but mcm tak kenal serik, tiz bakul kept on callg siti... being wherever she is... even in irc....hahaha!
whn she introduced him to her cyberfrens tellg them 'he is my bro-in-law', de bakul auto log-out. hmmm.... mcm tak suka jer....
but dats honesty watttttttttttttttttttttt, dont expect her to say 'ppl... he's one cool dude' rrright? coz u r NOT! in fact, u will NEVER b!
ask too much details abt her... what she'd like to do, where she is... details of her galfrens & guyfrens
track her whereabts.... even get her to chat wif u on de internet when she was across de globe
and during which, she had askd that u convey her regards to ur mom-in-law. Did u, actually did dat? until tis day, dot dot dot
yeah... and tis one is even mo interestg... tap her personal room phone
after several calls to Singtel to make the report, an officer had told siti tis :
"M'am, Singtel has no right to do tis. But we can refer your case to CID. However, we suggest you think deeply abt tis
bcoz whoever the culprit is, even if itz ur own family member, he'd probably have to go to jail."
SITI KNOW VERY WELL WHERE YOU BELONG AND 90 PERCENT OF HER SAID YES BUT
after a discussion wif her family, siti had decided to let de matter rez, veri veri veri reluctantly
Did you think she did all tiz because she c-a-r-e for you? ooohhh...peLLLiiisss!
Her sista begged her parents to speak to her to let you off, and why?
TO SAVE WATERFACE. AND ALL DAT WUD ENTAIL IF YOU WERE IN JAIL... SHE & HER SON, HER REPUTATION... AND ON AND ON AND ON... huh!!!
and to wrap up de dramatic scenario, you came askg for forgivenez
and you conveyed your plea to siti through her parents [but why when siti was not around?]
why did you not speak to her face to face? DAMN ASHAMED? or was it F-E-A-R?
wat else?
well, how abt tiz one...
u came to ur parents-in-law's home while siti was not around and insisted dat ur father-in-law allow u into siti's room
nobody had wished for that to happen
but you wantd it so much
pandainyerrr... mantera ape kau pakai ahh bakul???
ade mcm2 kat dlm bilik siti kan?
mana barangan siti yg kau ambil dan curi?
apa dia barangan yg kau dah taruk dlm bilik siti?
u shall NOT enter her room ever again but i juz have to insist you return everything hers, completely clean
simultaneously, REMOVE all de nonsence you have placed in her room, whilst you shall NOT set foot in dat room
possible? not possible? impossible? damn well make it possible!!!
UNDERSTAND!?!!!
a b g   i p a r   k e p a r a t !   s a t u   s e n   t a k   g u n a !
newayz
siapa eh... ? watz dat guy's name again...? kau ingat tak nama dia bakul?
datt person who spread de poison email-letter abt de top people in smrt whl he was STILL a staff wif em then?
and then made his sly ways to get anutha job whc sounds like tiz...  'if you've got what it takes, teach'
you know..., theres a difference btween teachers wif worth & value... and one without
from taoNan to temasek... kan... kan... kannnnnnnnnnnnn?
and then
and tHeN
aNd ThEnNnnnNnn
DID YOU REALLY DID THOSE ASSIGNMENTS YOU SUBMITTED TO YOUR LECTURER @ HIS HOME @ LOYANG VALLEY?
DAT DEGREE OF YOURS... I-T   H-A-S   N-O   W-O-R-T-H
PANDAI BENAR MAIN SILAP MATA
makanan apakah yg kau dah kasi siti makan?
apakah yg ade dalam makanan tu?
makbapak dan abang siti, sekali harung kau jadikan mangsa d e n g a n   s e n g a j a
tanah kubur mana kau letak dalam rumah makbapak mertua kau?
air ape yg kau pesan bapak mertua kau supaya' " biarkan ehh... jangan alih"?
"air ape ni DIN?"
"takde... air obat"
JANGAN BERIKAN APA-APA KEPADA SITI, EVER!
EVERYTHING YOU HAD GIVEN HER THUS FAR SEEMS T A K   K O S O N G   E H H ?
mampukah engkau bayar semula segala bills and what-nots that you hv made used of these people to pay on your behalf?
segala yang kau dah kikis
think of ways... start paying up!!!
t o   t h e   l a s t   c e n t
even ur son's hospital bills!!! huh!!! muka tak malu...
kalau tak mampu, kenapa pilih hospital private???
from tis moment onwards, everywhere you go, bring a mirror & a calculator
PAY UP! PAY UP! PAY UP!
 OR BE DAMNED
 DO NOT BEG, BORROW OR STEAL

my siti and her brother and her sister
all three of them were born @ st.Marks
the same blessed plot of land
where
American Hospital & East Shore stands
no... not bcoz of show-off
but bcoz
siti's parents cud afford so
 
kekekekeke   : x

and btw JULIANAHODARI, u r siti's sista's fren. so fer wholesome gdnez sake,  S-T-O-P calling siti

AZMANABDULSAMAD, when de time is rrright, i shall look for you, MASELF!
Di manakah negeri yang bernama siam
monk yang mana satukah jadi datukmu...? tunjukkan aku...
senangkan...? pasal kau tak tau buat... bulan-bulan masukkan duit dlm account dia
& bila ramdan kata," jangan teruskan... siti tak bersalah"
khadam kau kate," ini tugas saya"
s i a p a   p u n y e r   d a g u   p u n y e r   m i n y a k   k a u   d a h   g u n a k a n ?
kerana tak puas hati
kerana tak boleh terima
tapi siti tolak lamaran kau kerana kau pernah lahirkan hasrat nak sihir kakak dia !!!
situasi keruh antara dua beradik itu bukan urusan kau penyapu!!!
siti bisik pada aku," kenapa si Azman ni nak masuk campur pulak? he's juz an outsider. bsides, air dicincangkan takkan putus? InsyaALLAH, things shud b fine btween my sis n me. my sis and me r blood. we r blood. we r blood. i still love and care for her no matter what."
mana mamat yg kau suruh jadi p.i. engkau untuk ikut siti whereva she goes?
mamat tu dah flee kat msia kan?
dari sini aku nampak... nampak dah... nampak dah...
come bac here hambaABDI or i shall extradite you wif high-level, slow cruise, no-nonsence f-o-r-c-e

and fer total recall sake, all de foul talk you made to her, she has replied with these words :
everything will bounce back to you & stay resident

AZMANABDULSAMAD, JULIANAHODARI & SHAMSUDINKANCIL
siapa yang curah air depan rumah siti
dengan tujuan semua anggota keluarga siti melangkahnya, termasuk my siti?!!!
SIAPA KAFANKAN SIAPA ARI TU?
ISH... ISH... ISH...
SOMEONE SAID, "HMMM... KITA DAH BUAT APE KITA PERLU BUAT, APSAL DIA NI TAK MATI-MATI...?
DO YOU KNOW SHE WAS LOOKING @ YOU FROM ABOVE?
IN FACT, SHE WAS WONDERING HOW COME SHE PROJECTED OUT FROM HER BODY AND SAW WAT HER EYES SEE
BECOZ SITI TAK BELAJAR ILMU-ILMU SEBEGINI DAN TAK TERINGIN PON NAK MEMILIKINYA
KIRA-KIRA, SIAPA MAIN BANGSAT?
YA TUKANG KAFAN, KAIN KAFAN ENGKAU TELAH AKU SIAPKAN
KAPAS PUN DAH ADE
MAYATMU BAKAL AKU MANDIKAN DENGAN AIR NAJIS
TSK... TSK...TSK...
U THREE CAN START PRACTISING FOR DE PLAY TOO...  ERR... YOUR PLAY
"WHEN SHALL WE THREE MEET AGAIN?
IN LIGHTNING, IN THUNDER OR IN RAIN?"

 

specific people of any language, dah puas asap-asap barangan siti?
dah puas bermantera-manteraan?
dah puas buat keje?
dah puas kerjakan ape-ape yg telah engkau kerjakan?
dah puas making use of siti?
dah puas taking her fer granted?
puas ke tak puas?
 

menInWHITE... ready to deploy!
whoever&/whatever practice evil on my siti and her family, in de past, present & theFutureInclusive,  SHALL B DEALT WITH JUSTLY!

fersome : applause! applause! applause!
fersomeothers : marha! marha! marha!

d a t z   o l   f o l k s . . .   a t   l e a s t   f e r   n o w

honeysuckeliciouslymine
morning dear
i had tis xrated drim
i didnt tink of anything of that sort realli
but mengapa mimpi i sebegini rupa?
it was in a palace... yeah dalam sebuah istana...
i saw many many orang ternama di situ
wat was i doing among these men of importance?
i was de only female there
initially, i intended to use the bathrm and someone brought me to a master room
& there it happened
hmmm... some gals tried to hva a peep but there was someone in white guarding @ de gate
u know honey, i tak minta for such a drim but if it were to have u as de star, probby i'd want
b4 my hubby went to work, i told him, "d, i had a dream... a dream..."
and he told me, "dont worry, if itz a bad dream, do what i told you to do... and don't tell anyone abt it..."
i planned to go to de bathroom to spit but i doze off again
to which i had the xrated drim which i gez, supersedes the one b4...
itz like magik... i dont even rembr the bad dream i had earlier : )

there was one nite, i was listeng to ur songs on my creative mp3 player
it signals low batt
i terlalu shaccck to change the batt
so i continued to baring2 and gez, dozed off...
in de morning, u were still singing away... i didnt believe it at first
honey, u last even longer than de tripleA energizer batt

quite a couple of nights ago, as my hubby & me were preparing to go to bed
ur pic[from one of your cd sleeve] slipd off his pillow... so i put it back nicely
itz like standg against my hubby's pillow, wif u looking at me...
my hubby moved closer to hva look @ wat i was doing...
then he burst into laughter, "ohhh... nak tido pon nak tengok dia eh...?" hehehe... he continued giggling
i smiled coz therez tiz haya-ness in me & then i put the words right,
"the point is, m**sir and you share the same pillow, and me by your side, and then 2gethergether...we sleep 2gether"
to which i realised he has begun to snore away...

honeysuckeliciousliyours

ps : ... & i simply love tis track datz playg now, 'CitraTerindah', sifu... u terunggul!

honeysuckle, did u hva rough night? me shaccck *blur*
newayz, herez a short msg xchnge btwn mr&mrsK early tiz morng :

... U tau kan i love m**sir's works n him s a person. I hope u understnd. Tapi i m afraid u jeles : (
hehe tak la..ayg keke ; P apa nak jeles : P kan abg pun suka his style of work : )
Kewl. U r cool dude! Hidup bermadu ni kan, seronok eh? Sweetnez in sweet : )
hehe : ) mwah *kisses*

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kelmarin, i was @ mr teh tarek
i askd fer honeyGlazedChickenRice fer ma hubby
tis fella, he said, " eee... tak takut ke...?"
and he went on blabber... blabber... blabber...
his other friend who was doing de dishes lookd our way 1derg de commotion
juz as he was abt to pass me my order, along came a chinese fella & he orderd de same
so i kate, "awak sindir saya kan...? nengok, pasal saya order ini benda, org lain pon ikut sama... berjangkit kan?"
his friend laughed at him
as i was abt to leave, he said, " kak... jgn pergi... diri sini... jgn pergi... jadi pelaris saya..."
sifu, i malas ah nak layan deni
so i juz said, "semoga berjaya" & angkat kaki

dat nght whn my hubby tasted it, he said, "mmm... sedaplah...i neva tasted honeyGlazedChickenRice tis tasty b4... pandainyer bini abg..."

tis evening, whn i thot of tis as an idea fer my blog entry, i heard him callg..." kak... oh kak... please..."
persistently but i ignore! ignore! ignore!
den i heard dat friend of his said, " hahaha... dia tak layan kau"
i did not leave de bus until dey both alightd
different body, same voice
 

ma sifu, myhoneysuckle...mmm...gerammmnyer :)
someone came riding a bike and he hit me... looks like itz deliberate
i was pushd to de side but i was not hurt
i did not fall, alhamduLILLAH
in de midst of subtle wondergs of wat he wantd frm me[actually i was not bothered, itz juz reflex], i noticed...
a throng of wat looks like men-in-white behind me
i had no idea which side those men were on
but as i ran away from dat mat rempit[to whom my eyes see nothing but darknez engulfg him & he looks one angry man],
those men-in-white, they all ran along wif me
@ one point whn i called up to a small group of people-in-hiding
dez men-in-white were ready to attack whoever tried to come near me...
but i said stop! they are my family
only then, dez men-in-white senang diri yet very alert like they were sent to guard me...

dat mat rempit, he looks very very very de familiar tapi i takmu sebut nama dia
hanya kerana he was once a man whom i had hold in very very very high regard
[sifu, u faham kan... bukan i menyesal akan perubahan dia tapi... merely cam tak sangka gitu...]
newayz, i ingat mungkin dia perasan kot? i mean...does he tink he's tCruise in mssnImpossibleII?
faceOff...faceOn...faceIT! hez NOT even close
frm de time dey were born till forever... there will only be one tCruise... & one nCage
and de aspirants r merely wannabes
kekekekeke

did u watch mssnImpossibleII, sifu?
if, if, if i m not wrg, some scenes were shot in....theLandOftheFlamencoDenz
moi hv been there too but i oni covered toledo&madrid
ironically... precisely @ de same time of my vacatn
one plastic-gay-dsaigner  i knew was in barcelona
like hez tryg hard to prove smethg...
mula2 mmg mcm i nak catchup ngan dia @b
but i thot... ah...tak kuasa lah nyah...
so i flew bac to istanbul
@madrid airport, de whole plane was waitg for my gFRIEND & me
coz we were bz dfs-ing
nasib baik dpt tangkp announcemnt...
i beli chocolate
but she mati-mati nak beli that redwine for tiz guy she liked in turkiye... "oghang pesan kan...kempunan pulak nanti" kate dier
tak tau berapa kali i kata, jangan...!jangan...! nanti kalau kapalterbang terhempas gara2 u punyer redwine duabotol...
kan tak balik modal...
nak buat camner sifu? she didnt heed my advice
newayz, plane tu terhempas ke tak terhempas ke,  i tak perasan but...
 i found myself sitting in front of de pilot
kelakar ke tak kelakar...>>> pilot tu kasi i namecard pon gFRIEND i kebas
& i thot again... ah... tak kuasa lah nyah...

kenapa eh... thgs seem to hv associatn wif one of ur works
read tiz :
whn i was hvg a pte retreat @ my one favourite hotel @ cappadocia,
de receptionst had a msg fer me as i arrived frm sightseeing
he said,"m'am... therez a msg fer u..."
"fer me?!!!" i tanya dia coz even my close ones did not knw my whreabts then
cuba u teka wat de msg was...
"m'am, there's a long distance call fer u ..... from spain"
mcm i dengar tapi tak dengar
for ur record, i was kewl walau i thot tiz is pelik bin ajaib
i askd him again, " u sure? u sure itz fer me...? cud u hv gotten de wrg rm...de wrg person...?"
he checkd and said, " no m'am, itz fer msSiti frm rm XXX"
u eh, sifu? u called me ke? apahal u kat spain laks...?
kuang kuang kuang
i relate tiz incident to a Turk acquaintance of mine
TanerUnal who used to work for OrionTours
i tersangat gelihati coz taner told me
"dont be surprise gerl... therzs a rich man in spain who left his will & fortune for u"
i can only afford to gelak," yeah rrright... dont joke wif me....tiz is fiction"
he ended our conversatn with these words, " dont u know it...? u r special."
i tried to catch up with taner recntly to tanyer khabar but tak kesampaian...
i care fer him...i really do
hez a real nice chap who memorise dates and facts abt Turkey by heart
to me, dia ni ahli sejarah, cud b gvn a degree or smethg
but really i care fer him
 hez a freethinker the last time i knew him
& he did told me that hez lookg for directn but de hoo-haas abt thgs r too noisy it made him confused
kesian kan?

oklah sweethoneysuckle
i loan ur work to sign-off tiz part of mablog, k
dah 1 or 2 times we had telepathy sessions kan?
sori eh... de 1st time i had to cut off transmission coz dah masuk waktu subuh kat sini : )
wokiedokiez
c : ) l : ) e : ) e : ) p : ) t : ) i : ) g : ) h : ) t : ) d : ) w : ) e : ) e : ) m : ) r : ) o : ) u : ) g : ) h : )...muackkks

Cahayamu bagai sabitah
Doaku kau sejahtera
Biar warna kubah-kubahmu kian pudar
Untukmu setanggi ini ku bakar

Cahayamu sediakala

Aku rindukan zaman kebangkitan
Pabila nurani bersulamkan fikiran
Seganding dan bersatu
Lafaz niatku bertemu

Cahayamu tiada tara

Pohon salamku pada fakir-fakirmu andalusia
Pohon izinkanlah aku menyelami irama asyikmu
Pohon ku dipinjamkan gambus dan ghazalmu jadi azimat
Supaya dapat aku tari menongkah arus
Sahutlah andalusia

Apakah sudah kering lautan darah
Yang tertimbus di bumi alhambra
Ataupun masih bergelora menanti saat
Melimpah mengikut mata air

Antal hadi antal haqqu
Laisal hadi Ilaahu

dear sifu
i hv no clue of wat 2do so i tot i'd text these words 4u
cud u help xplain sme mysterious thangs dats been going on around me? ok, at least one
whn i confided in drYap frm cgh, she cudn't xplain it to me either
so i saved de details 4 u
did u give me tis cd of urs entitled phoenixBangkit?
did u mail it to me... or did u send it to me in person?
do u even knw my addrss in de 1st plc?
qn is, even if u do... how did u get to my room, whn tiz space is always lockd n dat u do not hold de key to tis groovyChick's niche
honey, i honestly doNOT rmbr buyg it... n wait...! not dat i dont support ur music anymore
but all i know was dat i was ill, perhaps very very very ill
then
i woke up one dey & saw it being placed on my desk, directly facing me, like earnestly askg me to listen to it...& i did
u know wat...? b4 tiz incident, i didnt even know of 'masirah' but one mangkuk had called me by tiz very name
cut a long story short, my cuzin then handed me a vcd of ur [ohmyGod!!!] phoenixB concert
did i say phoenixB concert?!!!!! geewhizzz...! is tis real? or is tiz a joke?
i mean... how come i was not even aware of it?
i never missd ur performances thus far, i think
so whr was i then?
how come i didnt even know abt it? how come u didnt announce it to de public? or even tell me abt it personally...
but if thr wasnt any publicity abt it, hw wud de vcd come 2exist?
me vri puzzled u know... err... whc year was dat? i c no year being printd on de cd sleeve
newayz my currentNokia5300 plays tracks frm PhoenxB as well as SangPencinta and not forgettg AyatulKursi....
& all tiz, my hubby hd dne fer me
oh btw, it cudn't be mrMdK[my hubby] who hd bght phoenxB fer me cz he didnt even know u existed then
we hvnt even met!!!
until recntly
i spoke so much abt u to him dat one nght as we were hvg quality time 2gethr, & me had wantd to turn off ur music, he said to me...
let it be... let it be... let it play, i am listeng to him
i was stunned and asked him, "really?"
he said to me, " yeah, i'm beginng 2 appreciate his songs"
so i let it played on
i askd him," do u like tis guy"?
said he, "i'll grow 2 like him later... i juz love his songs..."
i told him, " it works de other way round fer me... i like him already in fact, i m headovaheelz fer him, n perhaps later... i'll learn to apprciate his songs."
sifu, honestly, i can relate to ur works wayyy b4 tiz, actually...backdatg to de days of Kembara
i mean 2b truthful but each tme i m hnest abt smethg,
it seems like i already know dat-same-thg oredi
hmmm...

@tiz point, de track 'bahteraRaudah' is playg
on one occasn of my pilgrmmge, smethg had happend when i was in masjidilNabawi, specifically @ Raudah
u do know abt it, don't you?
i was at de ladies'Sectn.... how did u know abt it... ? if if if u were thr, then u shud hv bn in de men's area
it's in de song, o'rite....
abt wat i did to dat eldr lady who needd help...
no one bothered... or perhapz dey didnt notice her
i strectd my hands out to reach her : )

on anutha occasn, on why i had cried my heart out thruout my solat afta tawaf, specifically @ maqmIbrahm
& de same had happnd whn I performd my prayers bac hme..........................
do u knw y i said she is sisterly & motherly to me?
only she was able to ans me :)

alhamduLILLAH

salam ya Allah :)
when my hubby came home last night, we had our first slow dance :)
simple, with dim lights and music 'piano for spa'
syukur AlhamduLILLAH :)

salam... hi dear
i went to tiz shop to get panties for my teddybear and the chinese lady asked me, " how old is your teddybear?"
tis nyonya crackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! shezjuzsobiol or wat ni?!!!!!!!! dear i tink she needs medication?
i'm not too sure abt her but normal ones doesnt work for me anymore, 'm taking panadol Xtrahahahahhahahhahahahhahah
apsal eh? i'm juz high high high
i don't take illegal drugs wattttttttttttttttttttttttttt
& i drink no alcoholic beverage
i asked andrew wat to do to keep me awake... he said probably coffee
sometimes i tried and i became more sleepy
& tis sleeping pil drYap gave me, it keeps me awake!

i took a cab & de driver asked me when hari raya is.....i mean...how am i supposed to know? do i look like a calendar?
and i dont even rembr dates
broredzuan doesnt reply memsg . wat is happeningggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg?
metink me blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....helppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!

it was not even andrew in de first place
from de bac it was him
when he turns around, it was shawn
 

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forgive me dear

my hubby smsed and called me

forgive us dear :)

Terimakasih Ya Allah

Syukur Alhamdulillah ya Allah :)

salam mysingaporelove :)
mybabylove :)
mybabymagik :)
mybabym :)

i saw words of cityofpossibilities with little alphabets and colorful little stars smiling at me. they all speak to me...
they are chatty and this chats are music to my ears :) they are alive! they are so lovely!

hey u dear baby, happynationaldaylove :)

merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!

if you feel free or freed, come join the fun! let's celebrate together

happy nationaldayearth!

happynationaldayworld!

tenderlovingcare... peace :)

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stylish man-in-black of the day : mrpresident sir, nandiri :)... forgive me dear but that's abt all i know....hey bestDenki, thankyou :)
male performer of the day : it juz has to b u dearGaniKarim :)
female performer of the day : sweetKitChan :)
participants of the day : i guess... u & i = us :)

hi ya  Ya Allah:)... how r u :) ?

my hubby and me, went to have some healthy food @ eastpoint

 we both drank fruit punch... healthy ay? :)

yes we did share some food from the same japanese-like plate

and chinese-like yellow plate

and in between, we share ice-cream from the same cup,

topped with chocolate rice and some colourful toppings too :)

we even feed each other... hehehe..... so malu You Know, but lovely isn't it?

we saw monks enjoying that same healthy food from the spread

and my husband commented something i can't quite rembr

i macam sekejap melayang sekejap terbang

kelakar kan? i kelakar eh?

anyway

then i asked him if monks are from nepal area or thailand

he said in these two countries there are monks too

i looked at one of them and he juz helps himself around with smile on his face

he looks so humble, You Know....

i'm speechless

i felt peaceful

anyway

my hubby and me just enjoy ourselves in private

nobody disturbs us and vice versa

we just feel peace

it makes me feel at ease

peace, ease...

nice isn't it?

i liiike! :)

and You Know, we exchanged kisses too... heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

i think there's nothing wrong to express love in public, besides we are legally binded

awww.... sweet kan?

i liiike :)

anyway we went to some shops

one economical japanese store and then

we stepped into this christian shop i think

the shop is called 'precious something..." precious moments i think

and we saw colourful flowers with smiles on their faces and the little fingers which are bendable, we both make a peace sign for the flowers

and i picked up the pink cushion

that pink coloured cushion

she smiles at me and i just hugged her

we looked around and the salesman was nice too

i just feel peaceful, at ease and nice :)

then  i saw teddy bears with words like

hug me

you are loved etc...

but

one brand caught my attention

it's here with me now

it says Chocolate Greetingz "One for you & one for me!"

awww......sweet isn't it? sweet kaaaannnn? kan, kan kan?

and i feel really good as it also says

The CoffeeBear Series

www.Truehearts.com.sg

Product of Singapore

so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

wonderful! wonderful! wonderful!... these singapore people

i also bought a mini singapore flag with candies

it just felt like this child in me can't wait to celebrate the National Day

it's like the spirit of celebration is in the air

and when I left the cashier counter

I said to the salesman hey happy national day :)

he exchange greetings with me

sweeet isn't it? sweet kaaannn? kan? kan? kan?

and then as i stepped out of the shop a malay lady asked politely where she can buy the flag too

i brought her to the shop but i thot that was the last one left

the salesperson confirmed it so i looked at the little boy with her and i said here take this

i smiled and she smiled back and she was ready to open her bag

she said "how much is it? how much do i pay you?"

i said "takpe cik... bagi dia...saya ikhlas"

then i left to walk a bit more but a younger lady approached me and thanked me and she was brimming with joy & a radiant smile

many many smiles

she is propably related to the lady earlier

she said' " hey thanks eh! you know this is the first time this little boy come to celebrate the National Day in Singapore. He wants the flag sooo much!'

she was thanking me so much that she did not reply when i asked her "dari mana?'

anyway i thot maybe... juz maybe they're singaporeans living abroad

we just simply smile to one another and then  we exchanged salam and she [Oh MY GOD] kissed my hand!

like she didnt wanna let go

alhamduLILLAH ya Allah, hey thanks Buddy! :)

but i didnt know why she did that

well, it happened so fast i was blur :)

[i thot] yo.... why the grabbing and kissing of my hands? i mean....like who am i ? ! i am nobody great waaaaaattttt? !

but the sincerity is what i like

this is wat i like :)

i continued to feel de mix emotions of peace, at ease and simply happy...nice!

thanks ya Allah :)

as I exchanged salam with the other two elder ladies, the younger lady said, "eh...so lucky... so lucky eh..."

what's going on? am i a star ya Allah? no Dear, I am no star

aper sajer sey

i am me....i am siti...i am juz another ordinary person

anyway, i pening lah

i pun tak tau kenapa i pening tapi i pening lah

ok lah i nak makan panadol

apsal eh i macam terpelanting dari ntahmanamanantahlah

assalamualaikum ya Allah :)

terima kasih ya ALLAH

they say I was sick and I felt so scared

western medicine, traditional medicine, medicine ppl[ Islamic teachers, spiritual healers, TSWF man inclusive]... i tried so many

i even asked drYap to do a brain scan for me

i thot maybe there's chemical imbalance or something

at first she said no need but i told her i insist

and the result says i'm fine and that there's nothing wrong with me

then

and i started taking habbatussauda' kan, kan, kan?

and ikut sunnah nabi Muhammad

i juz makan kurma and air zamzam and kismis minda....i like!

and yes....madu of course

i love nabi Muhammad... & true enough....his sunnah helps

thanx nabi Muhammad :) kita pon baca selawat untuk awak tau...hehehe

kita bilang Allah suruh sampaikan salam pada awak...special salam...hehehehhe

anyway Ya Allah,

i tried to be brave and they said too many things

maybe too much too many

why do they just eventually focus on the whatever power they said they have?

i always happen to meet the wrong person

the wrong people

but i always remember you

becoz

i believe my ALLAH :) iyayy! orrayyy!

it drives me mad

it drives me crazy

U Know what I mean

yes! of course You Know what i mean

kekeke

tapikan....kita suka broredzuan....U Know what i like about Him?

there's one thing i asked....and he said to me "saya tak tau, saya bukan Tuhan"

SubhanALLAH.

i like broRedzuan

isn't it ironic...? that bro Redzuan shares the same name as the Angel of the Heavens?

wow! beznyer!

You Know me more than my ownself

i told You there are many more things I do not know than I know

and that You Know everything

You are The All-Knower

You are The Wise

and I ask that You Take Care, Protect and Heal me, my husband, my mom, my dad, my bro, my sis and my nephew

i love my family

i even do special doa for my parents too

becoz i am afraid that my parents doesn't fall into the category of 'my family' anymore

U Know....bcoz I am married.....so my family is probably my husband and me... maybe

and I love my parents very much

i just want to sedekahkan my pahala to them

but i don't know how many percent to give to each of them

so i remembered  that nabi Muhammad place the mother 3x above the father

so i just divide this way

yeah...i said my supplication for umat Muhammad in general too

i ask that You Plan, Arrange, Organise and Decide for me

my life, my death, my life in the hereafter

becoz Your Decision is Just

and Your Judgement is Just

I love You ya Allah

but at times i do ask broRedzuan to sedekahkan alFateha for me

You Know....especially when i feel nervous and i tremble

and that lately I just feel feverish....i feel the chill

just so overwhelming

and at times too i don't know why but my mind is so overloaded

then i told my husband and he puts his blanket over me

he's so sweet and caring and gentle.... and You Know what....

now i am starting to feel close to him

we even eat on the same plate, drink from the same cup....i told him

Rasulullah and his wife Aisyah does this

syukur alhamduLILLAh Dear... bye kita nak kuar kejap eh...with my hubby...bye...muackkks!!!

salam :)

oh by the way, i see little flags of singapore decorating my living dining room

aww... my parents kan, they are patriotic sey

they love singapore

yes they do... wow!!!

You make me happy...

hey You.....Thank You eh

You're my Buddy

thanks ya ALLAh

byeeeee.....nanti kita citer-citer lagi eh....?

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but wherever i go...U be with me eh?

kita takmu sesat

kita takmu terkluar dari Islam

nauzubillahiminzalik

takmu!takmu!takmu!

ampun ya Allah

pls Forgive me Dearie : )   : ) ALLAH    :)me   :)hubywuby...kekekekkekekek

assalamualaikum hubywuby
happy anniversary : )
today we celebrate in private
for the solemnisation date is more meaningful, isn't it?
2 days to come
we celebrate again
but dear... why did the kadi fumbled my name was sitiMariam?
aren't the bridegroom supposed to be the one who normally fumbles?
but you didn't fumble my man
you lafaz hanya sekali
but the registrar.... he's blur ain't he?
then again he's cute i like him
my eyes can't help but see
my feet can't help but tap
this guy... he's innocent
pretty pretty
what beauty
which is why i had zoom-in to this very guy and i told myself
i only want him
my mom picked the date
 i was busy tracking his availability
ironic how it seems
7th August
9th August
indeed feels somewhat auspicious
Augustus... i love you
gracious
sweetness in sweet
and that song
that keeps me company
while you were there
in between China and India
me here

my dear beloved marcell
marcell my man
sing marcell
sing!

kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
desah angin meniupkan namamu
tubuhku terpaku

semalam bulan sabit melengkungkan senyummu
tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu
aku pun sadari, ku segera berlari

cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi
firasatku ingin kau tuk cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi

alirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudera
ku tahu pasti kemanakan ku bermuara
semoga ada waktu, sayangku

ku percaya alam pun berbahasa
ada makna di balik semua pertanda
firasat ini rasa rindukah atau kah hanya bayang
aku tak peduli, ku terus berlari

dan lihatlah sayang
hujan terus membasahi
seolah turun air mata

my beloved sifu

salam

i do not know why

but i have decide

to pour my feelings down

but let the hands of nature guide me

please bear with me

honey if you could

recite a prayer for me

whichever you  prefer

for in Islam there must not be

compulsion

simple yet blessed i wish

honey

i prefer The Opening

peace

sweetness in sweet